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First thing's first.
I am new =) so welcome me!
but besides that.
Today has been a day with non-stop thinking from homework to cleaning the house! it has been nuts. I am sick..from this cold weather in plain ol' michigan. what better way to spend than in front of a fireplace huh?. I am going point blank right now b/c my head hurts..and like i said before I'm sick...which is a bummer.
College quarter (winter) is almost over I have 3 weeks left..Yay! then a month break ohh yea!! time to relax.
well I guess I'll turn in for the night. hopefully something interesting happens tomorrow. =)
goodnight all.
-Jena
:( Church is in a half hour. and I feel soo sick.
I really hope winter is coming to an end soon I don't know how much more snow I can take.
I've learned that it's a lot easier to just kill family w/ kindness to get them off your back. now need I say..I never said hate/revenge or anything like that it's just being nice to them even though they are being mean to you, it throws them off. Now that I am an "adult" as my lovely family says..I need to grow up.
I am in college I bust my buns(lol) everyday to do my homework. then I'm currently unemployed at the moment that's b/c looking for jobs here in michigan is 0% chance of finding one is irritating me. so I'm stuck at home =P I don't like being stuck in a house 24/7 & it sucks b/c it's cold & I can't go for walks like I used to.
But This summer there is going to be a slight change of plans. my parents are leaving in June for my mom's birthday they're going to Hawaii(Yay!) and then when they come back we're going on a family Vaca. we don't know where yet. we're debating vegas(been there) or Montego Bay( I wanna go)...sooo hmm how should I talk them in to Montego Bay??? that I'll have to think about.
Good Morning.
isn't it a wonderful day today. =/ nah not really just getting up and ready for the day. work work work it's all I seem to do these days. I need some me time.
I'm in a bit of a pickle. My uncle is forcing me to start looking for a guy. B/c I'm 18 and I was suppose to do that when I was 16(I wanted to finish school first). and now it's down to the wire either I look for a guy or they find one for me. =o
idk what to do??
I think I might have found a guy that I actually like
....
:D
it has been a year since my cousin Larry was married today and today is also his birthday.
it is also the day the doctors told him he has less than 6 months to live b/c he was battling stomach cancer.
my pictures were the last pictures we had w/ him before be passed away on my sisters birthday 5-10-2008.
so today is my day of silence in remembering my cousin Larry.
Rest In Peace.
it has been nothing but irritation these past couple of days.
I'm getting sick of everybodies pitty & sympathy, when they have NO IDEA what I'm going through.
:x
it's 11 am. on monday. & I'm so proud of myself that I do not have to go to pre-algebra class anymore b/c I finished early and passed =). so I can just relax today. & probably finish any homework I have left to do.
8)
I'll write later tonight if anything happens today.
hmm???
oookay. so when I moved I had to get rid of my dog(sheba)...I was so sad b/c I've had her since I was 7 I got her on x-mas eve(her birthday).
and I convinced my mom to get another dog, it just feels strange w/ out a pet in my house I mean we have pirhanas..but they're not all that exciting.sooo there's this adorable Jack russell terrier & I'm hoping I getting him, if so...I need names!!
help me out peeps.
I may be getting a dog again:yipyep:
it's been while since I've been on and it has been a total scare.:(...
I literally had to move out of the house for a couple of days and live with my aunt and uncle..it was crazy.
well I'm back home now and trying to adjust all over again.
soooo..I've got good news & not so good news.
Flordia is my destination. BUT I've gotta find a way to get everything there.
hmmm...Imma put my plan into action and see how it goes.
:?
soooooo.....I'm going to San Diego July 21st. Yay!
:yipyep: I'm going w/ 7 other of my siblings that I'm really close to well 6 out of the 7 but still Yay!..I can't wait I'm soo excited.
In n' out of relationships finding someone to share life with..
I'm unwilling and I won't carry the load
Fairy tales and the fantasies there is no prince coming to save me.
With or with love I still end up alone..
Until you came along
I never wanted to fall in love just for my
Own protection (protection)
I wouldn't let my heart accept it..
But when you touched me I got infected (infected)
I made a promise to never fall and so far I thought I kept it
But my heart wont let me reject (reject) cause when he Kissed me I got infected (infected)
With your love.
Now i'm right here watching you sleep
Never thought this would be me
My hearts been invaded and now i'm in your control
And when you hold tight it just feels so right
& I get butterflies when I meet your eyes
Tell me how did you get by, when I let no one inside, and it Caught me by surprise when you
Came and infected me.
I never wanted to fall in love just for my own protection (protection)
I wouldn't let my heart accept it (accept it)
But when he touched me I got infected (infected)
I made a promise to never fall & so far I thought i kept it (kept it)
But my heart wont let me reject it (reject it)
Cause when he kissed me I got infected (im infected) with your love.
Like the ones you beleive I should be quaritined
The symptoms of your body start to weaken
The side effects are you may fall way to deep
Then you deny what your feeling is a feeling
You try & fight it but your gonna have to give in.
Whatever you had (had) you gave it to me (me)
Was immune to love (love) but you infected me
Like the ones who beleive now I should be quarintined?
I was fine being blind but you made me see...
I never wanted to fall in love just for my own protection (protection)
I wouldn't let my heart accept it (accept it)
But when he touched me I got infected (infected)
I made a promise to never fall & so far I thought I kept it (kept it)
But my heart wont let me reject it (reject it)
Cause when he kissed me I got infected (im infected) with your love.
so much 4 my luck 2day
-currently sick
bummer!
ugh. I'm so stressed..I'm pulling my hair out (literally) I don't know what I'm gonna do my mom is pushing this Vacation all on me and I'm only one person NOBODY isn't doing anything!! they expect me to do everything.
I've gotta get the tickets for everybody, I've gotta find the hotel and find a vehicle HELLOOO!! I'm not the only one going here. I could just cry b/c I'm not getting any help :cry:.
and they wonder why I'm always mean.
well my plans and dreams were shot down today..:(
I was wanting to go to BCC college but like always my mom wants me close to home. and she said no.
then my smart ass mouth of a little brother(excuse my language) told me "you shoulda done sports you coulda got a free education" umm news flash retard..education is FREE if you want the education.
so what's the next best thing..:?
going to church in 15.
Romans 6:18
And having been set free from sin, you became slaves of righteousness.
Paul tells us that when we ask Jesus to forgive our sins we are no longer a sinner, rather we have obtained Gods fruit and have everlasting life.
My previous post(yesterday I believe) I said my bcc plans were shot down. well...I'm going to MSU Yay!
I'm moving to Lansing Wooh Hoow!!
I'm soo excited I leave around the fall and winter and get settled then..I start classes in the spring! of next year
I'm so excited eeeh!! Yay
ok, I'm tired now lol..
I'm turning in early really early good night..:yawn:
Monday.
it's a new day I'm getting whatever needs to be done out of the way, so that I can have a relaxing summer for once this year.
but planning this trip is still stressing me out like crazy. and...I'm just so excited.
who's going:
mom
stepdad
little brother
little sister
nephew
old sisters(2)
step brother
aunt
and ME of course..wow that's alot of ppl
oh well the bigger the better
it's been crazy these past days. I went to the dr.'s today they had to take some blood samples =/ because there's a possibility I could be a diabetic.
and a thyroid exam..on the other hand I met a guy and well he's a sweetheart..and now..i'm blank and i feel so sick..tired and weak.
goodnight ya'll.
there is so much on my mind right now i need to find a quiet place and clear my head. i'm just not feeling ok today. everything just seems it finally at the top of a hill and we're getting ready to go down hill...
I think i should've stuck to what i was doing before and should have left all this crap behind me but nooo i had to bring it w/ me so much for that. and my friend he's pissin me off i'm sick of hearing him talk about this same situation it's annoying. i just want to say I DON'T CARE but i know if i do it'll hurt his feelings.
i just might end up doing it b/c he's pushing my buttons. he told me the same thing when i was doing it to him..why doesn't he stop also..UGH! i swear...
i'm a complete and utter wreck and seriously not in a good mood at all today!!:x
The past 2 days have been rough for me i'm sick and some very depressing things happened that will stay unmentioned for the time being. I feel like crap & I just want this to be done and over with. so I can get up out of here and move on..
well it's time for me to lay back down i'm still not feeling good
*djchaldo.synthasite.com*
so.
good news. LCC is officially in progress. what's next?? housing!!
:)Happy Easter All of CC.
okay,
so there's this guy that I met and we've been talking for quiet a while now and he's been wanting to take me out to a movie and a dinner you know I would like to go out with him but, the only problem is, is that he is very open about sex. I mean I have no issue with that but expecting to have sex on the first date, no. definitly not I would not sleep with him on the first date it's just not me yea ok, so you're ex broke up with you and it's been while since you've had sex and you just met, don't sound desperate it's a turn off to me.
so my problem is how do I go about telling him no? because he's a very cocky person and he hates to be wrong, and from previous relationships i have a scare issue.
what do I do?
it is not necessary to Lie to someone that already knows the truth.
you're just making it worse on your part. just own up to the truth and deal with it.
I need all the support I can get - http://djchaldo.blogspot.com/
Jena...
thanx!!
wow it's been a week, it seems so much longer since my last post.
nothing really exciting happened other than yesterday was my little sisters birthday she turned 9.
oh and I'm hopefully soon I'm praying that I'll be a happy owner of a Japanese chin named Houdini =) I want another dog, it just feels weird without one in my house so I'm hoping and soon to get him. I pray for the best.
I am almost done with spring quarter classes i have 6 more weeks wooh! time flys fast when you're having fun. but I'm usually at home w/ the fishes bored off my nutz with nothing to do.
yea I know, you're probably thinking get your lazy ass up and find a job and do something, before you say it newsflash I'VE TRIED at this very moment there are no jobs. so I'm taking a break. and don't give me that taking a break crap I NEED ONE!!.
so this about wraps up my morning so far and I will come back and post if anything EXCITING actually happens
-Jena (support : djchaldo.blogspot.com)
Today is going to be very interesting.
1. my mom is gone for the weekend.
2. I have to keep an eye on my brother and sister.
3. I had plans so I don't know how I am going to work around them.
4. I wonder what's gonna happen.:?
so I just got the news that thursday my cousin Glory was in an accident with a semi & she's in a coma, they're not giving her that long to live...this just made my day go downhill...:(
church in 6 minutes. bye.
the article : http://www.lenconnect.com/news/x342377300/Crash-with-semi-injures-woman
iiinnn ccclllaaasss =s...
:D
I get to choose a JC (japanese chin) I want this weekend
updates:
-I went to a lugnuts game w/ my brother wed. then later that night had a horrible asthma attack.
-thursday nothing exciting..I talked to friends and phil then had class (math) and took a test
-friday did a couple of errands & then sister came into town then watched X-men (the new movie, good movie)
-now I'm up this morning chest still hurts a bit & phil called me to say good morning.
now i'm going back to sleep.
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so. it's 11.34 pm to be exact & I'm exhausted.
.I got an 02' ford explorer the 18th :)
.I'm caught up w/ all my home work
.My cousin glory is doing great
.My step dad is unfortunately still in the house
.I applied at MSU (lets hope I make it there)
.My dad was finally caught by the cops Yay!
.I'm still in school
.I'm still working on adopting a japanese chin
.Phil is still around sorta
and alot of other things i'm just really really tired.
:?...
next week is my last week of classes & I will have officially completed my 1st yr. of college :D I feel good about myself.
San Diego is right around the corner =O holy toledo!! and I have nothing for the trip.
I canceled my blog. for a couple of reasons. but it's all good :) idc
still being patient for MSU's decision hmm...I wonder if I'll get accepted, only time will tell.
there has been a couple of other things..but I can't think of them at the moment..but I will post them when I do..
Happy May/June...& summer
jena
stressssss!!!! stresss!!! and more stressssssssssssssssss!!!!!!!!!!:x
unbelievable stress.
some people just need to GROW UP!!
it's a sad thing that Michael Jackson died was not only an icon he was a brother a father and so much more to people. the same with farrah fawcett, Ed mcman and Billy mays.
REST IN PEACE TO THEM ALL.
it's been nutz..I am in the hospital because of an asthma attack & diabetic seziure..this sux ass..other than that i have been so so. just alot of work work work...still lookin for a damn job its driven me crazy.
and my stepdad :) he is officially out of the house yay!! that is alot of weight off of my shoulders..well i'm tired and wte else...i can't fight this medicine anymore..
TTYL
JENA
so my dr. has found a spot on my lower right quadrant ( where my appendix and intestines meet ) it could possibly be crohn's disease which explains why i have been sick for the past idk how many months but he was right it is undetectable and hard to diagnose without a biopsy/colonoscopy which i cant do because i am to sick :( i have lost so much weight it's crazy i just got out of the hospital monday..and if it gets any worse i will be back in sooner than i expected which means...
my vacation plans have been held til further notice. that and i could be moving to texas anytime soon so again there goes my plans for msu well i just took my meds and the side effects are kicking in im getting sleepy and my vision is getting blurry so..
ttyl
Jena
4 days later today..they still think I have crohns disease..so this friday I have to get a colonoscopy done.. WISH ME LUCK!!
bad news..there was no sign but they wanna go further with a full body scope.. :(
it's been a while and a hell of a month and a half you can say. well let me get the updates rollin.
diagnosed with IBS and it's pretty bad that i filed for disability.
I went to new york and new jersey for vacation it was so so.
my dad owes me and my sister about 47,958.15 lol..and it's official we will be getting it this month AWESOME
I have changed my major to finish school in a quicker major M.O.A (medical office assistant) to help my mom she's getting sick
I'm getting ready to FINALLY get a car it's an 08 pt cruiser I LOVE IT
School sucks still but i love it b/c it gives me something to do
I still haven't gotten a dog and i really want one
I'm still single and loving it lol i know crazy me.
i have lost family like crazy i miss them so much but i know they are in a better place
and most of all I'M STILL THE SAME OL' JENA :)
On my own, but mostly the savannah,
Where the tumbleweeds fade away and die,
Before the glassy sun burns a summer of crystals,
The glistering waters of the high seas
Of which was so far a place as of where vultures roam.
I looked around but you weren't anywhere...
You used to say that you would never die,
But I took the wrong meaning into my heart.
Now the sea is wild with despair,
Deep blue like a prairie of flowers blue,
Where all children of God rest in eternal peace.
I saw you at the end,
You and I, brother and sister of nature,
Brother and sister of heaven and earth,
Your usually calm and heavenly eyes full of tears,
Bitterly falling one after one into a river,
Then the river of life turned red in blood.
My eyes watched in horror.
Slowly and deadly your heart became poisoned,
You disappeared without saying good-bye,
Not a word came out of your mouth.
You became like desolation in its grave.
When once the skies were a realm of stars
And the sun shone brightly in summer skies,
You were there to share the calmness;
But now I stand here in midst of the tall grass
And only the savannah remains.
wow it's been a loooonnnnngggg time since i have been on but unfortunately my internet has run away from me..BUMMER.
to note where I am I am at school (college) =). it's 9:52am and I have a doctors appointment at 11:20 ( i know you guys don't care) but I felt i needed to say it and plus I'm supposed to be leaving in like 30 minutes but all of my important files haven't downloaded yet. DAMN COMPUTER it's going so sllooww why now?!?
anyways..my birthday was monday and it was my GOLDEN birthday..I have previously discussed what that was months early before my birthday. and that marc guy I believe I have said a couple of words about. well good news WE'RE TOGETHER =) I know (So lame right?) but IDC I'm a happy son of a gun. and now that my plans are in full ocean motion
I am going to keep forward with it. BTW : I've been without my IBS medication for about 2 months now =/ and these symptoms are a killer and I am glad I get to go back to see my lovely dr. to be put back on another perscription because the Levsin made me HALLUCINATE I have not ever experienced that til AUGUST 25th. my mom told me that I was going crazy.
For the record when you're hallucinating, your memory is wiped clean for a good 30 days. it's a killer trying to remember every important thing in you life but you've got to make do. soooooo it's time for me to close in and I will try to keep posted more now that I know the schools computers still work =)
TA TA FOR NOW
and god bless
Jena
;)
I'm 19
Graduated from J. high 08
I love music
movies
the color green
Moroccan [chaldean & black]
I ♥ my friends
I hate fake people, and don't bother taking me for granted I'm step ahead of you
my mom works for the public
my dad is an asshole
I'm majoring in Therapeutic massage & Vet Tech
I ♥ to travel, I wanna go to Greece one day.
I have big dreams
I'm a crazy nut! [literally]
I ♥ jokes & to joke around
I am outspoken, open minded & I wear my heart on my sleeve
I ♥ to write & sing & play the guitar when I have time
I'm a Navy Lover =)
I know 3 languages I'm working on 2 out of the 3 to be fluent [spanish & arabic] both family native tounges
I'm a animal ♥er lol
laughing is the drug I'm addicted to
my remedy is life
my enemy is failure
I ♥ food
I ♥ my kids mikey & chico. yeahh so what if they're dogs
I ♥ my family for the most part
Everyone is a sinner so who are you to judge! , which I do in fact judge people before I know them. but that doesn't mean my opinion won't change.
Don't call me a hypocrite b/c everyone has a hypocritical flaw somewhere.
I am ME
"Hard work is the price we must pay for success. I think you can accomplish anything if you're willing to pay the price."
- Vince Lombardi
the glory of holidays! THEY SUCK!! to be blunt about it.
and why? yeah most people I know would say christmas holiday is about christ, family, giving, loving etc. yeah after all of the
*holiday shopping that drives you nuts
*family dinners that end w/ some type of blow up
*crying ungrateful kids that are upset because they didn't get what they wanted for christmas
*siblings (no need to explain anymore)
*they holiday check gone to zip
*the weather
*the very religious part of family that hangs on your every thread
*the fruitcake
*the christmas carols
*getting sick.
*last minute shopping
and so much more. and they all wish you a happy holidays! tell me that's not a backwards jynx. sometimes ppl shouldn't say it at all. because have you ever had that one holiday it doesn't have to be christmas necessarily where they wish you a happy holiday and it turns out to be a total disaster and later you see the same person that wished the luck upon you and their holiday was just divine and it makes you so sick to your stomach.
Holidays They are just trouble.
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