Emma's Blog

[Emma_Girl]

A part of me really wants to pick trick because I could really use the laugh right now, but than chocolate always helps so maybe I should go with treat. This has been one of those days. It started with some what of an attitude adjustment notification to my boss, one which I am not very pleased with. Then I have 2 classes to add to my day. Bio is kicking a** and 'my teaching science' class has lost my interest. It's pretty sad, but I have lost interest in my classes this semester. Well, I'm also peeved that I can't take my younger siblings trick or treating b/c of the late class. Ok, I took a walk thinking it was going to help me relax and clear my head b/c my head is killing me but I'm feeling even more sick right now. I can't get sick. I can't afford getting sick right now. I'm starting to feel a fever but I must keep strong. Well, anyhow, during my walk, I noticed some really interesting people on campus today. I saw this one girl dressed as one of the characters from Willy Wonka's Chocolate Factory; the one character that turns blue. It was funny. Through out all these years, I have never seen students on campus take so much initiative with this holiday but today is different. Well, I guess they don't call it "Hallowayne" for nothing. Well, at least I survived my first blob on this site. Now excuse me, I must go and :vomit:

[Emma_Girl]

It's a beautiful day in the neightborhood! :)

Thank you, Jesus, I feel so much better today. I woke up early and was awarded with a lot of candy from my sibling's trick or treating yesterday. They are so sweet. They saved all of the Mounds and Almond Joy for me. I :love: my siblings. Man, did they score with a lot of good full bars. They usually separate the chocolate from the jelly and eat the chocolate first, but they don't even have to do that this year b/c everything they got is good. Chocolate...such a good thing! So, I get in the car and drive to work and as soon I sit on my lovely chair, I am told to check my e-mail by one of the Directors. To make a very long and loud story short, I found out that I won a student leadership award and that I'm being recognized at a conference this weekend at Akron University. However, due to a previous engagement, I will not be attended. I'm so exited about this award. Seriously. Beat that Miss Boss lady. LOL. This came so bitter sweet because I'm really exited about winning but sad that I can't be there to accept. But it's all good because one of the Directors is accepting on my behalf. Dude, now I know how Sandra Bullock felt when what's her name accepted on her behalf. Proud. Disappointed. Confused. Now, as I try to calm myself down, I remember that I have a class in about 4 hours and that I haven't finished my journal entries so I must get to them. I also have to run to a few museums the next few days and get to get on top of my digitial project. But the worst thought is studying for my bio exam. Why? Why must I have to take Bio? Seriously, I'm an English major. But it's all good. Today, everything is good. Anyhow, I've got to get on these reports soon for my job or else I'm going to hear it from her and I don't want to hear anything negative right now. The kinkos on campus can't do a 14x18 print and now I have to run around town to make a copy of my painting which is going to be on ebay next week for an auction. Ok, so it's a long and very filled day for me, but I'm really exited.

When God closes a door, he always opens a window!

[Emma_Girl]

I just discovered that I misplaced something very very very important. I hope I find it. Oh please let me find it.

[Emma_Girl]

For the rest of the day, I plan to study for my Bio Midterm tomorrow. I don't like this class at all. Anyhow, I also have a presentation tomorrow for my Science class. I wonder how much longer until I get my state exam results? I'm getting nervous about that. I exchanged some presents with friends last week and now I got some coming very soon. I love this time of the year. I had an event yesterday that took a lot of energy. I'm tired just thinking about it, but very excited that it's over. I :love: when I see an event go so smoothly. It's :twisted: until the day of, but it's all good now. :) I've got a lot of paper work to deal with now. :roll: I don't like this part of starting a business. I still haven't found the thing I discovered missing last week. I'm starting to get nervous b/c I really need it. Well, it's off to studying soon. I get to go get some lunch and start cramming.

[Emma_Girl]

Well, it's Tuesday and I find myself very very sleepy today. I have to work late tonight by myself. :( Classes are ok. My bio exam was a killer. I some what studied for it, but I don't like it so I guess not that much as I should have had. I have a few articles to review this week. But good news is that I have a new lil sis! Yeah! Boy, I'm going to spoil her. I have a wedding next week that I haven't shoped for. Seriously, dress shopping is way overrated especially when it's a close relative.

If I could be anywhere right now, I would like to be in Paris. I would walk around the city, drinking hot chocolate and go up the Eiffle Tower and just over look the city for hours. I'd walk around the whole level of the tower and look at every angle of the city from every section of the Tower. I'd wave hello and wishful think someone is waving back. Then, I would go and walk the city and buy some art pieces from corner booths. I'd make a stop at a crafts store and buy some nice bangels to match the scarf I picked up at Florence. Then, in the midst of the violen sounds, I would greet bystanders with a smile that showed how happy I am in the city of romance. Yes, that's how I wish this day would have been, but I must await this dream day's agenda for another time.

[UmiSayz]

If I could be anywhere right now, I would like to be in Paris.



No you wouldn't. Trust me ;) Have you seen the news lately?

[Emma_Girl]

I want to be in the Paris I created above. Don't mess it up. It's a good story! :twisted:

[UmiSayz]

I want to be in the Paris I created above. Don't mess it up. It's a good story! :twisted:

Thats too bad...

http://english.aljazeera.net/NR/exeres/205EC6BA-3ECE-441F-89D4-07842744D968.htm


I just messed it up for ya ;)

[Emma_Girl]

:( :cry: I want to be in Paris. :cry:

Fine , I will edit.

Where it says Paris, input Sydney.

Where it says EIffel Tower, input Sydney Oprera House.

[UmiSayz]

LoL very well then! Opera house? U love it when fat lady sings?

[Emma_Girl]

Yes, I love the Opera.

[meme913]

Emma.....you put such nice detail in you blog...I love it as well!! I'm in a loving mood today!!

[Emma_Girl]

Awww, thanks Meme.

[Armenian]

I'm in a loving mood today!!

and here I thought you just loved me because you loved me. :?

[Emma_Girl]

This has been a tough afternoon. I've had to deal with way too much. I just want to go home and get some sleep right now. :(
I need my mommy.



Armenian was right. I should have blogged this.
http://www.chaldeanchat.net/forums/viewtopic.php?t=7745&highlight=elevator

[Emma_Girl]

This has been a long day. Sorta depressing because of a few things I had to take care of. There are just too many things to do the next few days. A part of me really wants this semester to finish so that all of this stuff goes away, but then, I remember in order for it to finish, I must first do everything that's required of me and just the thought of that makes me tired. Ok, seriously, I need to recharge my energy and kick all butterflies out of my stomach because no nervousness shall be allowed. Tomorrow is a big day. Now, I wonder what it would be like a year from today. My life is going to be completely different. Everything I ever knew will be different. Everything. Wow, a part of me is nervous, and another part is excited, making the butterflies not want to leave me anytime soon. But, I need to gear up to this challenge and set forth for the future that was destined to fall before me. The challenges awaits. The journey fulfilled. The desire delayed and the effort betrayed.

Why is it that we see something so perfect right infront of us and instead of doing the right thing, we decide to do something completely different? Why is it that instead of taking the easy yellow brick road to Emerald City, we decide to creap through the forbidden forest of questionable turns and infamous pot holes? Why? Why do we continue to challenge ourselve and instead of taking the easy way out, we continue to continously bring ways to make things harder? I ask myself that everyday. And then a part of me answers very quietly, in hopes of the other part not to hear. For the harder roads empower me to never give up and always aim clear.

[Emma_Girl]

The past few days were alright. Thanksgiving was fun. I did some major cleaning of the entire house and that made me feel really good. The most productive feeling happened yesterday. I did more homework in one day than I have all semester. That was such an awesome feeling. I feel so much more better when my work is completed. I'm loving this weekend. I pulled a whole day of movies with a really good friend of mine. That was fun. I love our Movie with Chinese food days. I :love: you Fyrestarter! I've been thinking it's Saturday since Wednesday and it's finally Saturday because I've been wanting to watch SNL so bad. It's probably a rerun today since it's a holiday weekend. I wonder who the host is today? :think: Anyhow, it's still cool. It's probably going to be some of their funniest Thanksgiving clips. I still haven't put up our Christmas decoration yet. Slacking off, but it's ok. Shoot,I might not get a chance to put them up til next weekend. No, that can't be. I have to put them up soon. I could do it tomorrow, but I don't feel like it. Laziness is not cool. :no no: Well, in a few hours, SNL will come on. Today's skits better not disappoint me. I've been looking forward to this for days. You know what I miss. I miss Mango. I use to love Chris Katan! I think that's how his last name is spelled. Anyhow, the old timers like Molly Shannon and Sherry O'terry and all of the other guys were hilarious. I did however meet a few of the guys at a conference and I must say Mr. Finese Mitchell is one very good smelling guy. He was awesome. His agent is quite persistant but he's cool. Anyhow, this blog is longer than I planned for it to be. I'm starting to feel sleepy. I better not fall asleep before SNL. I swear I'm going to be very disappointed if I miss it. For some strange reason, I've been wanting to watch that show so bad. That's the bad thing of being home on a weekday. It confuses me and makes me think it's a Saturday on a Thursday. However, for the WSU students out there, you know the bs of having a Tuesday be a Thursday and a Wednesday be a Friday thing. It's so confusing. Ok, I've said my shpeal for the night. Adios.

[Emma_Girl]

I had guessed right. I fell asleep before SNL. Oh well. Monday morning at the office is always very quiet. I've got a few things to finish today and I could use a big cup of hot chocholate. I wonder what I should do my final presentation on? I'm thinking of getting a real tree this year. I need to go get one by the end of the week.

[Emma_Girl]

I tried continuing my Christmas shopping today. And now, I have a headache. A big one. I have a secret Santa gift to buy and I don't know what to get this person. I want it to be very special but I really don't know what would be perfect. Hopefully, I'll have all the Christmas deccoration done soon. Boy, am I slacking this year. Usually by this time, all the decoration is up. I'm currently haven't some printing dilimia. Why why must there be a standard size? In the words of the great Caz, UFFFFFFFF.

[Emma_Girl]

I'm so sleepy and tired. I've been studying bio and I'm really sick of it. I give a lot of credit to those who can sit for hours and seriously enjoy this stuff. I'd much rather write a 50 page essay right now than sit here and learn about this stuff. Why? Why have me memorize all this stuff. If only I could just draw or make an elaborative demonstration of something, then that would be so much more productive. At least in that way, i would be learning. Most of this stuff, I am just memorizing. God knows I won't know half of this stuff once the exam is done. But I guess I have to sit through this. Only a few more days left and I sure have a lot to cram for. I'm so sleepy. So tired of bio and every science class.

[Emma_Girl]

After three months of shopping, I am finally done with my Christmas shopping. I am so releaved. However, I've got to hit the stores again today because I've got to buy 2 gifts for my two little sisters from my brother because he doesn't have time to do it before Sunday. There should be some discount on mailing packages this time of the year. I swear I've spent more money shipping stuff out then I've spent on the gifts themselves. Note to self, in times of shipping items, buy light gifts. I have two weeks off and I'm going to be doing a lot of studying because I have a major state exam in January. Well, I won't be on line as much doing the break so I'd like to wish everyone a wonderful and blessed holiday.

HAPPY RAMAHANAKWANZAMAS!

[Emma_Girl]

I have two New Year Resolutions.

1) Drink 8 glasses of water a day! I drunk 11 yesterday.

2) No more fast foods.

Ok, so let's see how long I could go with these resolutions in place.

[Emma_Girl]

Wow, I've had a lovely morning. Our Tech guy :love: came to fix the departmenet's servers. There are two very good things about his situation. 1) He's aboslutely gorgeous and everyone in the office thinks he's aboslutely perfect...for me. (j/k) 2) The servers are stored in my office. Yummy Yummy. I've got an informational session in a couple hours. I just got invited to a legislative brunch, but it sucks that I can't take a guest. These things are always so boring, but I have to make an appearance. I had hot chocolate this morning and I burned my tongue. :oops: I feel like Kramer from that Seinfeld episode where he burns himself with coffee. I'm really excited :) for the next month and a half. I've got a lot of great events schedule, some more exciting than others. :|

[Emma_Girl]

I'm tired. It's been a long day. Two hours of it spent on the road, riving to and from hell's end...Clinton Twnshp. I must say the Macomb Teacher's Workshop is quite impressive. It would be awesome if every district provided those resources. Makes me wonder where all that lovely lottery money the state claims to go into education when so much difference is put into the different school and the opportunities provided, not only for the students, but also for the teachers.

*Special Shoutout to Meme for those great directions. However, I took the first entrance and ended up in Macomb Community College and ended up circling the entire place until I got the exit. I could have went back from where I came in but the exit lane was unbelievable. I guess I got there at a popular time.

I pulled a muscle in my leg a couple days ago and it's still hurting. That's all for now.

[Emma_Girl]

This has been one of the biggest week for me. I am so tired. Work has been insane. I'm still waiting on a major state exam grade and if my grade is good enough, then I could student teach in less than a month. If not, then I'd have to wait for Fall. I'm only taking one class this semester and that's teaching science methods. Good news is that we just submitted a quote for another client and we're hoping they'll accept. Physically, and mentally, I am burned out. In less than a month, I will be heading to Boston for a full week conference. I'm really excited b/c this is one of my favorite conferences to attend. Not only is it the most exciting of them all, but it's also one whose procedures I know like the back of my hand so I don't need to spend so much time going over stuff. So, even though I am really tired right now and have hours of work ahead for me, I am still really excited for the next month. Tomorrow is the last day of a major event that has required months of preparation. I am so happy for the turnout and feel extremely blessed with the results all the hard work has brought in. I am mostly happy that it's going to finally end.

But the best thing of all is that some of you might hear my name in the papers soon b/c Miss Emma is about to get nominated for some state wide recognition for her event planning skills. So, cross your fingers and hope I make the list!

[Emma_Girl]

Well, it's a nice Tuesday morning and I've got a lot of things to take care of today. I wish I had an assistant because a lot of the things I need to do are errons and small calls there and there. I've been feeling too laid back on stuff lately. It's as if I don't really care what happens and I'm not stressing out about things anymore. It's a good thing b/c I'm not freaking out, but it's also a bad thing because I should care more, but I don't. Kind of hard to explain but it's as if I'm not putting that extra initative on certain things. This is what happens when you lose interest in things and I have lost interest in what I do. I guess I'm just ready to move on to the next step. Well, I don't know what's going on, but I know that I need a change soon or else I'm going to go ballistic! <--Did I spell that right? Who cares. See, that's what I'm talking about. I just don't care anymore. :? I wonder why.

[Emma_Girl]

Today is a very laid back day here at work. Last week was very busy and next week is insane, but today is just the in between transitions of programs that got me finding myself with not much to do. I just make contact with an old friend, one who ment something to me at one time in my life and it was awkward. I'm probably going to be thinking about this all day now. I did something today I should have done two years ago. It was hard, but it had to happened. One might ask why now? Why wait this long after everything was said and done to actually do something about it and my answer it, I don't know! I seriously don't know why I did it, just did it. I like this new outlook I am having on life and the things that come before me. I followed my heart and answered the questions honestly. It might be awkward, but it's the truth and if anything, I wouldn't want any more miscommunications to happen on my expense. Being blunt about things comes with concequences and I am looking forward to know how the reactions will occur.

[Emma_Girl]

I am soooo peeved right now. I've been working on an event for tomorrow for months now. We've known for months that it was going to take place and we knew exactly what was going to happen. Earlier this week, I talked to one of the guys that was supposed to deal with the vendor of a very important product we need for this program. Anyhow, the note comes back and lands on someone else's hand when it should have came to me instead because I would have made sure what needed to be done was done. Anyhow, when I checked on the guy to confirm an hour ago, he tells me that he never received the order. The person who got that note never made the order and now we don't have this very important product that we need tomorrow. OHHHHH :x

Seriously, if I had known about this, then I would have taken care of it. Why would you give me something and automatically expect me to know exactly what needs to be done without telling me there's something else to this order that needs to be completed. My God. :x

When I got that form, I thought the order was done and over with. But no, she gave it to me to do instead of just see. OHHHHHH :crashpc:

If she had taken the intiative and just ordered it right then and there instead of assuming I would figure it out that it wasn't ordered then we wouldn't have been in this dilemma. OHHHH I am so mad right now. My whole event is going to be ruin tomorrow b/c some dumbass didn't follow through. :x

:bang: Damit it!

[Emma_Girl]

The past week has been very interesting. I've had some major life moments happen to me.

My first one was meeting my all time favorite singer! He was awesome and an absolute sweet heart. I also got a really cool award that I'm definately going to show off on my wall for many years to come. lol. But my biggest moment took place yesterday as I walked in my classroom. I am doing my student teaching and I must say, I have seriously enjoyed it. The past few years, I've got a chance to do some major corporate projects that have somewhat given me an opportunity to climb that ladder of executives. I could really see myself going big in a couple years in my field, but I can't help wanting to be a teaching so bad. When I'm in the classroom, I abosolutely love what I am doing. I was doubting myself as an educator but once I came back in the classroom and got a chance to truely remember why I chose this profession, I know deep in my heart, this is where I want to be. My plans were to graduate with this education degree, but really use my english major to excell in the career I've worked in the past few years, but now, I am not so sure about that. I am definately interested in being a teacher, but I still don't know how long I'm going to be in the field. Anyhow, that's only for the future and for now, I am just happy to know that I am loving where I am placed. It may not be where I want to be five years from now, but for this moment in my life, being a teacher is what I want to do.

[Emma_Girl]

I love people that love to smile!!! :)

[Emma_Girl]

I finished my first week of teaching and today was very hard b/c the kids were extra crazy with the sugar they had for breakfast. Maybe it's just b/c it's Friday and that they and I were all tired. Whatever it was, I'm just really glad the weekend is here b/c I truely need the rest. Viva la weekend!!!!!

:jive:

[Emma_Girl]

My mission before the end of the day is to finish this magazine article. All I need is right here *point to head* but I need to put it on paper or else no else will understand. I don't feel like writing this article and I've dragged it along for way too long. So, now I need to stop being a punk about it and just do it. I've been having cheese sandwiches and pb & j sandwiches for two weeks now since I gave up meat for Lent. I must say, I am seriously sick of pb. I should start eating more salads, but I just don't like salads. I need to figure out new ingredients of good salads without meat in them. :?

Oh well. :disgusted:

Now let's see if I'm going to finish my article tonight. I hope I do. [-o<

[Emma_Girl]

The past two days, I've had a major headache that just does't want to excape me. I think I might be coming down with something b/c I'm just feeling extra tired and extremely sensitive to everything. It's probably this weather that's been playing games the past few days. Or it could be the fact that I ate meat for the first in weeks time on Sunday. I found out I had an assignment due yesterday and I didn't turn it in b/c I didn't know we had one on Spring Break. That's a bummer. We'll that's it for now. I need to go catch some Z's.

[Emma_Girl]

I have two assignments I need to finish by the end of the day and I am not feeling like doing either one. Why do I have to take stupid science classes. I'm an English major for God's sake. Why do I need to know all of this dumb stuff. Well, I guess it's not dumb, but it's it's really boring and I always avoid doing it and get the worse grades in class. :(

On some good news, I had lunch with some cool friends and that was fun. But now, I need to concentrate on this assignment. I just don't want to do any of this science homework. Ok, I have to stop being a baby and get this done.

[Emma_Girl]

I want a big glass of gold icy water right now!

[Emma_Girl]

I made me some awesome bracelets today. I love jewelry making. It's so much fun. I love all crafts. So relaxing, especially if you have the talent to create something you wouldn't be ashamed of wearing. lol. Well, I need to get movig on a few asisgnments. I have 2 major asignments due next week. One being my Teaching Portfolio and although I have majority of the material needed, it still takes over 100 hours to prepare. This is my entire teachign career in one binder. Talk about freakin pressure. Anyhow, I could really use a nice big glass of icy water right now. I've been sick the past week and I feel extra sick because I am taking medicine and I HATE TAKING MEDICINE! Well, it's mainly dehydration anyway. So can someone go get me some water please?

[Emma_Girl]

I passed my teaching science method course. I am so happy. I managed to get a 86% even though I missed 2 assignments! Oh yeah baby!! They were the two I dreaded and never completed. But oh well, it's done and over with. This is going to be a busy weekend for me. I've got a lot of places to go. Anyhow I was productive at work and ended up saving an event from a disaster so I am the hero for the day! Yeah for me!

8)

[Emma_Girl]

I'm in the off season right now, meaning I am not doing 1% of the job I was doing 3 months ago. With all this time on my hands, I should be doing things. I've cleaned the office. Cleaned my room. Organized all of my books. Cleaned out my CD's. <-- I discovered some I completely forgot about. And now I'm just here to sit. And pertty much do nothing but be online. I have so much time for the next two weeks to do nothing that I am amazed. But I should really take full advantage of it and do some of the things I haven't had a chance to do in a long time because of the crazy schedule I've had this year. But right now, I don't want to do any of it. I just want to sit here. Just sit and do absolutly nothing. Nothing at all. As relaxing as it is, My God, I feel so unproductive.

:help:

[Emma_Girl]

I'm going to get some lunch in a couple minutes and I am not really that hungry. I had a bagel for breakfast and I dont think it sat right because I feel like :vomit:

Anyhow, on a good note. I got one of my birthday presents last night. It was so much fun. :jive:

I feel like getting some pepsi. I havent had that in a while. I've been really bad at drinking my 8 glasses of water a day. This is not good because when I dont do it, I get sick and I feel it coming. This along with giving up McDonald's were my new year resolutions. I've been really good with not having Micky D's. I haven't had it since December. But the water par of the resolution has been slacking.

Anyhow, Ive got a 10 page proposal to type and edit so I've got to get to it. Adios!

[Emma_Girl]

This has been an exciting couple weeks for me. I'm really happy with the pace my company is taking. It has truly been a blessing and a reminder on how fortunate I was to have had the will to keep on the path I took. Sure things have not always been easy, but I really am proud of myself and of what I stand for today. I'm waiting on a very big thing to happen the next couple days and it's something that words can't honesty describe. The personal satisfactoin of one's work can't be compared to any amount. I had a wonderful conversation in class today with our guest speaker and it put a light on upstairs. I see on what to improve on to be the person I want to be. There are so many things we need to be ready to change about ourselves and to have constant constructive criticism taken in without the need of defending ourselves. This might not make sense to anyone right now, but it makes clear sense to me. I guess what I am trying to say is that in order for us to be more than we ever imagined is to be able to change and to accept the fact that we are not perfect. I hope that I always view things of this nature as patient as I do right now. I hope that my understanding of life and of all I want to get out of it is as accepting as I view it today. And I hope that over the years, I remain as open minded regarding different issues and different points of view and that no matter what, I don't jump into conclusion.

And now aside form this philosophical phrase that I am feeling, I would just like to say that the Sandwich Thief is back and this time, they took my Baby PanPan from Little Ceasars. I was annoyed because I wanted it, but I guess that's over with. Anyhow, I need to relax and get in my zin because I'm heading into the examination room in a couple minutes and I need to pass this exam.

Until then my friends, Stay True.

[Emma_Girl]

:plaster: I feel sick. I don't feel good at all. I just want to :cry:

[Emma_Girl]

Yeah!!!! I have a new baby cousin!!!!

I might get to San Diego this summer after my last class is over. I hope the baptism is after I'm done. That's so cool. I haven't been there in years. Awww, I can't wait to see that little muchkin.

Time for another Emma leading Khagga!

:bunny: :dude: :dude: :dude: :dude: :dude: :dude:

[Emma_Girl]

I met 2 more people from the site, Corleone and Nibras and that was pretty cool. The past couple days have been filled with commencement ceremonies. My brother graduated from high school. He was so adorable in his cap and gown. One of my sister graduated from Middle School today and the other is graduating from elementary school on Monday. It's so cute. This year, we have a graduate in every level within the siblings: elementary, middle, high school and college (moi). I'm so proud of them.

On a sad news: I'm going to a funeral tomorrow, for a parent of a friend of mine. This is the first funeral I ever attend. I've never seen a dead body before. I'm really sad for my friend b/c this has been hard on him. Really hard.

[-o< May God watch over that family.

[Emma_Girl]

I've got a lot to do today, but I don't want to do it. Only a couple hours left in the day and so much to do. I feel so unbelievably hot right and this fan is not helping much. I wish I had an window in this place.

I think I'm dehydrated, but I'm too tired to walk over and get me some water.

[Emma_Girl]

I hate all medical professionals.

:firing: :protest: :flames: :starwars: :smackbottom: :clubbed: :knock:

[Emma_Girl]

I've got a lot of things going on in my life right now. Some good, some bad, others confusing.

My biggest thing now is job searching. It's getting tough. After all of this experience and all these years in school, you'd thing the perfect job would land right on our lap, but it doesn't. I guess I always knew it wasn't going to happen right away, but the wait is killing me.

But the most confusing thing is this mysterious and very puzzling someone that is just leaving me with a wondering thought. The stage when one moves from a crush to a fasination is quite exciting but at the same time very nerve racking. I hate it and love it at the same time. My God, does this blog make sense to anyone else but me?

[Emma_Girl]

The stress of job searching is really getting to me. :cry:

I love my job, but I have to move on.

I am so sick of applying for jobs. I am soo sick of searching for jobs. I am so sick of anything that has anything to do with getting a job. I am so sick of my resume. I am so sick of the cover letter which I have edited like 1000 times and I am sick of these stupid employers not returning my calls, emails, or fax! I hate you corporate america. I hate you! :x

No, I don't. I really want you. I really want you. :cry:

[Emma_Girl]

I feel much better today about this whole finding a job thing. I found my dream job in 2 different companies. I saw some very interesting jobs come my way the past couple days. I'm still nervous about which ones to go with. My heart and interest is divided between two different careers and now it's becoming harder and harder as I make the ultimate decision that might have me say good bye to one for good. The two worlds have been such a big part of who I am and now that the divider is cutting deep, it hurts to say good bye. But I knew all along that in order for me to truly be successful in one, I would have to put the other aside. The time has come for me to descide.

Wish me luck!

[Emma_Girl]

"It was the best of times, it was the worse of times."

I got interviewed for grad school today and it was pretty interesting, but I don't think I'll do it now. I need more time to relax. For some strange reason, I keep singing all these wierd kids songs lately. I know so many of them and they keep coming out of my mouth as if they're on top 40 of something. If I hum "roll roll roll your boat" during one more meeting, I swear I am going to loose all of my clients. lol. The other day, I started tapping to the beats of "Miss Mary Mack" while reviewing some programs. Funny, and wierd. :? I wonder what this means. Anyhow, my wierd little kitten is changing colors on me. All of a sudden, she has brown streaks. You'd think she got "ma-ash" done. lol. Its so cute though. Anyhow, I'm off to a seminar.

Bu shin bish lama

[Emma_Girl]

Some big decision making coming my way. I'm seriously overwelmed with all of this. I just got the opportunity to be part of a fellowship progrm at one of the best universities in the country. But, this will require me to leave home and I can't do that right now. My God, this is unbelievable. I don't know if I should cheer with joy or cry at the unbelieveable situation I'm in right now. But I must say, it would be amazing to put John Hopkins on my resume. :(

[Emma_Girl]

Too many decision too make right now. Way too many. So many big things have happened to me the past week that I just want a break from it all right now. I said no to a very big question. I hope I made the right decision. :(

Job searching is going good. I dont know why I'm getting nervous with this test they want me to take. It's not like I haven't used these programs before. Except for that dumb outlook program. I just don't do well with timed tests and this one is timed by the questions. They'll know how long it took me to answer each question and that makes me nervous. Khamarae. Anyhow, I've got to drive to the end of the world to meet with a client later. Time to take out my musical soundtracks for some entertainment on this long trip.

[Emma_Girl]

Random Thoughts:

You'd think finishing school would bring an end to testing, but no.

I could really use a big glass of cold water right about now. With lemon please.

Gosh, it would have been cool if I were born a twin.

I wonder what he's doing right now.

Is she going to be saying the last yes or no?

Should I call at 2 or 3?

[Emma_Girl]

My blond moment of the week: So a friend of mine calls and says, "movie? tonight. you, me and dupree." And I honestly sat there for a few seconds and wondered to myself, "who the hell is dupree?" :think:

[Emma_Girl]

Yesterday was a beautiful day. I had 2 very important meetings, both went really well. The second meeting had me driving to the end of the world again but that's ok because I think I'm going to work out in my favor. If that happens, then this wil be the first for something very nice to happen with the company. I'm proud but at the same time worried b/c the bigger the project, the more the responsibility.

Well, I've got a meeting in a couple hours that I don't think will go well. I could almost predict how it's going to go but I hope I'm wrong about this. I'm nervous. However, I guess it's good to have some type of anxiety.

Either way, this calls for chocolate.

[Emma_Girl]

Yesterday's meeting went better than I ever thought it would be. I'm so happy about it now. Man, this means I"m going to be very busy and over stressed out the next couple days. I could really use a glass of water right now.

[Emma_Girl]

i'm tired.

[Emma_Girl]

Alright, this has been a quiet day. Not much happening here, but at the same time, there's so much to do. I shouldn't procrasinate, but sometimes, I can't help but like no doing anything. Although a part of me really likes to be busy all of the time. Anyhow, I've got 5 hours before another major meeting to take place. I'm feeling really sleepy. I shouldn't have had that soup for lunch, it just make me really tired. Anyhow, my life as I know it will change entirely as of Saturday. It's unbelievable on what this means to me. I'm really excited, but at the same time scared, nervous, and worried. But there's no room for any of those emotional feelings to take place. Right now, all I have to do is take care of what I have to do before Friday is over because it is my last day in so many different ways. The changes that will occur in my life will be big, which is why I don't expect to post on this site as much. I don't know how long my going away will last, but I'm sure, I'll answer the occasional posts here and there. Well, that's about it, I guess. We go. We come. And at the end of thejourney, we hope and ask, 'was it worth it?' I know it was. It'll always be. No matter who agrees or not.

Good bye my friends.

[Emma_Girl]

Awwwww, I am so blessed in my life. I love my friends. I really really do. :love:

I just had a surprise good-bye party for me in the office. They're so cute.

:cry: They even had centerpieces and everything.

I'm going miss these guys. :(

[Emma_Girl]

Just as I started to write this blog, Rascal Flatts came on my Itunes with "I'm Moving On". Seriously, talk about perfect timing. Listening to this sound right now is making me so peaceful. It's bringing me to bitter sweet tears.

It's been a good day. A really good day.

:love:

[Emma_Girl]

I'm at peace right now. What that means? I am not exactly sure, but I feel very calm and relaxed as if a big weight has been lifted off my shoulders. I have a big layout to finish the new couple weeks. Don't you hate it when you have something to work on and you all worked up for it and get nervous and then when it's over, you say to yourself, that wasn't worth the crap I went through being worried about it? Why do we worry about things when we know it's going to be alright at the end?

Anyhow, I met 3 people from the site this week. Teffo, Pinky, and Pinky's lil sis. Teffo is a lunatic. Pinky is a lunatic obsessed with the color pink. And Pinky's lil is a lunatic in traiing. LOL I had a lot of fun meeting them. We went shopping. BTW, did you ladies realize that I had bought the biggest and smallest earrings in the store? I'm really excited about the gold earrigs I got. I'm wearing them to a special event tomorrow. ;)

[Emma_Girl]

The words '90 day letter' have never sounded more sweet. :love:

So the job market for teachers is really sucky right now. I have full certification and all of the endorsements needed to teach elementary k-5 all subjects and k-8 self contained, but I, along with my fellow teaching friends, are having such a hard time landing a job right now.

:(

This really sucks. Thank God for Plan B to still be there, but seriously this is really annoying. The job market for teachers was so good when I started my college career, and now that I'm done, it's unbelievably hard to find a full time teaching position.

Thank God for DFT to go on strike. I hope they stay firm and strong and not give in to district's threats. They've been bullied for far too long.

Well, on a good note, I just had lunch with a dear friend and it fun! :)

[Emma_Girl]

Why? Why is this happening to me? :cry:

It's not fair. It's really not fair. :(

[Emma_Girl]

Just as I thought the door to the answered prayer had been closed and the key to have been tossed to sink in the deepest ocean, a crack in a darkened window brought in the light. A breeze unlike any other traveled through the room, wall to wall, floor to ceiling, making it the perfect place to breathe just the exact amount of needed and much anticipated air.

It truly is amazing on how things work themselves out at the end and despite how much we don't want to believe it, everything does truly happen for a reason. A reason unable to describe and truly understand. From why we woke up at the exactly 8:42AM to why you are reading these words at this absolute moment. Everything and I mean everything really does connect at the end and this puzzle we call life ends up with the most beautiful picture some day some time from now. As we pay attention to the image we work so hard to build up, even though not all of the pieces of this devine puzzle we aim to complete are found, we still have a good idea of how far we are. And even though, bits and pieces of the picture we call life to still be missing, we still have a pretty good idea of how it will look when all of the pieces have been found.

[Emma_Girl]

:think:

[Emma_Girl]

I absolutely love literature. I'd love to be able to teach classic literature one day or at least concentrate on just Shakespeare. Wow, that would be the best job ever! From Wordsworth to Browning, to Blake, to Keats, to Byron, I'd love to be able to make a living just analyzing their works and teach students of all ages the love I have for these awesome pieces of writing.

Well, here's one of my all time favorite poems. This poem is very personal to me. So here is a little of Emma to share with you. I hope you like it.



The Road Not Taken by Robert Forst

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveller, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

[Emma_Girl]

I'm starting my second year of internship for a national magazine and I find myself having a major writier's block. I get this every time I have to submit a topic. It's so hard trying to narrow down all my interest and chose one single topic to focus on. Well, honestly, it's more like, I have no idea what to write about. My last two entries have been very different and I like the route I've taken with my writing, but I still find myself wondering what the reader would like to read about. I'm feeling very much like a Carrie Bradshaw right now, ready to lead a confusing and yet myterious but in a way comfortable life style. In search of whats wrong and what's right, we find ourselves in a confused corner, questioning all that we've ever known. Could it be right? Is being confused the new chick? I mean, who isn't confused these days? From work to family to dreams, we find ourselves questioning and asking ourselves if this is what we really want and if it's worth it. Yet, despite popular beliefs, being confused does have a sense of comfort with it. The thought of not knowing what could happen seems interesting. Since when did being confused mean you'd be lost or abandoned?

[Emma_Girl]

I got me a new phone so I'm excited about that. :)

I got bainds now! It's going with my face. I like the new look. I don't know what got over me. I was watching the style channel and some very well dressed stylist said they were in so I took his advice and got them chopped. I'm glad I did b/c they look nice.

:love:

Anyhow, thanks to the childhood memory thread, I've got the Contra code repeating itself in my head.

Bushinbishlama!

[Emma_Girl]

My God, I've got so much work to do before my trip! I must say I am really excited about seeing my mom's side and all, but this trip coudln't have fallen on a bigger week for me. Everything was perfect last week and then all of a sudden this huge project is going to come up out of no where. Don't get me wrong, I am blessed to have it taking place, but if it had only been brough up last week, then that would have been awesome and so much more accomodating to my schedule. Thank God I added a Nation Wide plan b/c these roaming charges would have definately broken the bank. Anyhow, it doesn't matter. On an awesome note, I've got some killer heels for the party I'll be attending this weekend! My God, they are so hot!!!!! And the earrings are to die for. I love all of this traveling. After I come back from the West, I am going to be heading to the East Coast next month and I'm really excited about that. My only problem now is to make sure I get everyone that I'm going to go see a gift and bring everyone I left a gift. I love the gifts buying part of traveling. It's always so much fun! Santa Emma in the House!!!!!

Cross your fingers!!!!!!!! [-o<

Something really good might be waiting for me when I return. I am sooooooooooooo excited and extremely nervous but I am really realy really thrilled of the whole thing.

:angel: I don't want to jinx it but let's just say, it's a great step of the infamous latter we like to climb!

;) Good Night

[Emma_Girl]

Areb Cingular for putting me in such a bad mood. I am so frustrated with such a stupid company. :x

DAMN YOU CINGULAR!
:crashpc:
DAMN YOU!

[Emma_Girl]

So, San Diego has been interesting. The whole Chaldean thread of people knowing people is really getting old. Tell me why the fudge did the hairstylist, a lady I had never heard of before, knew my family and everyone one related to me. We could never just be another random person. Oh well. It wasn't even one of those house stylists, she worked at a spa. She just happened to be Chaldean and of course we all know that the word Chaldean is the key word for "your personal life is not personal no matter how personal you try to make it." :x

The party was fun. Beyond the glits and glamour, a lot of dancing took place!!! Dancing...My forte! :jive: It was a mixed "villages" wedding. Surprisingly, the bride was from Michigan so I felt a little bit of home in the midst of all those strangers known as cousins I haven't seen in years. I'm really glad it was a mixed wedding because the bride's side though I was related to the groom and the groom's side thought I was related to the bride. I felt like a wedding crasher. LOL. :lol:

Oh by the way, my cover has been blown :bang: so now most of my cousins know I'm Emma_Girl. :-# It's all good. I still love ya! Don't expect for me to give you all of my CC points!

[Emma_Girl]

I've a research document to complete for tonight's meeting and I don't feel like doing it. :(

I'm feeling totally lazy right now.

:? I wonder what I should have for lunch?

Ok, seriously. Focus. Focus. Focus. I'm all over the place here. I need to get productive. I swear there are days where I just don't want to do anything. And it doesn't help that the site that has the file I need to read is acting up on me and is not letting me download what I need in order for me to complete this thing. :x

On a much pleasant note, I saw someone yesterday. :love: Someone I hadn't seen in a while and it felt so good. You know the butterflies that are in your stomach that only come when that certain someone walks in the room, well, those butterflies were all over my abdominal yesterday, making me crazy. LOL

Now, I've got to come back to reality and get this stupid file to download before I go insane.

Anyhow, Right now, i feel like :jive:

I wonder... :?

8) Oh yeah...that's a great idea.

:think: But what if...

:twisted: Who the fudge cares? I'm so going to do it.

:lol:

[Emma_Girl]

I just noticed that next week will mark a year for this lovely blog of mine. Oh where have the days gone?

Well, I went halloween costume shopping with my little sis this past weekend and as one of the sweetiest :angel: 11 year olds to ever walk before me chose the most ugliest :x and scariest costume, I though to myself, WHYYYYYYYY THE MADNESS????? :shock: I tried talking her out of being that scary monster and instead to pick the cute Princess :love: outfit, but I just got a 'Get with the program' :bang: look. LOL. Well, I got my costume too. I will be a Lavender Butterfly. :D Since the 11 year old sister doesn't want to be a cute creature, I think the 24 year old sister should. LOL. My costume is complete with wings, boa, tiara, and last but definately not least lots and lots of sparkles. I will be showing it off at a Kids Halloween party that I'm volunteering at. It'll be fun. :bunny:

On a serious note, make sure you get involved with the kids in your neighborhood. You could make an impact in so many different ways. If you don't have any younger siblings, call your local YMCA or Boys and Girls Club and ask them if they'd like volunteers for their upcoming events. If you have time, try to be a mentor. Seriously, it doesn't take that much effort for you to touch someone's life. All it takes is a couple random trips a month either to the movies, game, shopping, or whatever! There are so many kids out there that need a strong support system and even though you might think you're not doing that much as a mentor, you will be. Just the fact that you're there makes a great difference. It's sad to hear of all these kids everyday that don't have anyone to lean towards. It really is. :( If you have nieces, nephews, or younger cousins, try to get more involved with their lives. And don't say you dont have anyone b/c as Chaldeans, you've got babies popping left and right.

By the way, you all BETTER pass out candy this Halloween!!!! :x

Until next time...

[Emma_Girl]

Chestnuts roasting on an open fire,
Jack Frost nipping on your nose,
Yuletide carols being sung by a choir,
And folks dressed up like Eskimos.

Everybody knows a turkey and some mistletoe,
Help to make the season bright.
Tiny tots with their eyes all aglow,
Will find it hard to sleep tonight.

They know that Santa's on his way;
He's loaded lots of toys and goodies on his sleigh.
And every mother's child is going to spy,
To see if reindeer really know how to fly.

And so I'm offering this simple phrase,
To kids from one to ninety-two,
Although its been said many times, many ways,
A very Merry Christmas to you

:love: I love this song!
For the love of God, I can't get it out of my head.

[Emma_Girl]

Alright, let's see, since Umi and Spring Break did a weekend review for their blogs, I think I'll do one too.

Friday: I seriously don't remember Friday. WTF did I do on Friday?
I don't know. :?

Saturday: Went to a friend's bday party that was a lot of fun. I discovered another great restaurant in Detroit called the Woodward! We've had them cater one of our events before, but I had never sat down at the restaurant. Anyhow, I would strongly recommend it. Great service. Excellent Couture. It definately makes my top 10 favorite D'etroit restaurants. And then after that, I had some fun with a few friends. All and all, good and somewhat interesting night.

Sunday: My day started really early. I teach on Sundays so my students were quite eagered to learn. However, I caught one cheating on the test and I failed her. She wasn't very happy, but oh well. That afternoon, I took my little sister and her best friend to a children's halloween fair at a local museum. It was cute. I was so proud of my munchkin when she suggested that she volunteers for next year's party. Even though they're young, I have had my little sisters volunteer for so many different things and I was so proud of her for suggesting that she volunteer on her own, without me forcing her to do it. She made me so proud. Later that night, I met up with some friends for a local women's entrepeneurs dinner/mingle. It was fun. I, being the token Middle Eastern brought the Baklava. It was a lot of fun. And the topics we ended up discussing were quite interesting.

[Emma_Girl]

I finally finished my article and sent it over to the editor late last night. I'm such a slacker at times, but for some reason, procrasination does have it's good moments. Anyhow, I was reading some of William Blake's poetry earlier. He truly was a great man. If you haven't heard of him before, you should try googling him. He lived many years ago, but had the talent unlike many others. He was gifted in both the arts and literature. My cousin gave me the best compliment a couple weeks ago. He told me that I remind him of William Blake. I didn't even know he knew who Blake was, but boy was I wrong. I seriously was so honored to hear that from him. One of the things I like most about Blake is the fact that he printed his own work, both the poems and paintings. He would write a poem, and then draw a picture to visualize what he wrote. And then, because there weren't any copy machines around, he'd rewrite the poem and redraw the same picture, which is why there are a couple different versions of his paintings. Isn't that awesome?

[Emma_Girl]

I can't wait until Tuesday night because it will bring an end to these constant negative advertisements. Do these idiots seriously think they'll gain the respect of their voters by telling us the wierdest facts about their opponent? This is why I can't stand politics. They're all so corrupted in so many ways. Whether you like to refer to yourself as a democrat or republican, if moral and ethical values are not within your daily routine, then you, my friend, have no soul. These people are supposed to be running for high political positions that will be making the decisions that will effect our lives for the next few years and they can't even run a clean race without insulting one another. I swear I loose more respect for them, everytime I see another negative commercial. I can't think of any political race that ever took place without the two idiots disrespecting each other. It's like Lansing's version of "Yo Mama" has been transfered through 30 second commercials. Anyhow, it'll all be over Tuesday. One of the idiots will get the position and woop dee doo, they will get office. I was reading an article earlier and did you know that Dick DeVos spent the 2nd most money in the entire nation by airing over 20,000 commericals? This khamara has had us watching these commercials since February! Did you know that 90% of the republican party's commerical has been negative nation wide and that 80% of the democratic party's commerical's have been negative nation wide this election? Why do we care so much about making people look bad? Seriously, if all of these candidates had spent their money and time advertising to the people on what they will offer, instead of making their fellow opponents look bad, then maybe, just maybe, they would get more votes. But, I guess that's not how the politicans do it. This world would be a much safer and friendlier place if the president of every nation was a Woman!!!!! Seriously, can you imagin how many more people would live to see tomorrow and how many more children wouldn't go to bed hungry? Yeah, sure, we can't blame the entire world's problems on the guys. Oh wait, yes we can. LOL.

No, but seriously, it's really sad to read about all of the hungry kids in this world. I watch these political leaders on tv, claiming they have the answers to everything, but in reality all they have is connections and the race to better networking for their own futures. Next week, I'm going to work with 'Operation Christmas Child'. It's a great project that packages shoeboxes filled with gifts for children all over the world. It brought me to tears thinking of how some of the kids the packages are going to go to live. It's really sad. Can you imagin, instead of being born to the parents and the world you know today, imagin if you were one of those kids? Imagin if you too were 7 years old right now, wondering the vallies barefoot, looking for something to eat, and somewhere to sleep? As crazy as it is for you imagin this horrible and uncomfortable position, just know that there are millions of kids going through that right now. Millions.

Damn, this got me so emotional, you'd think I was pmsing or something.

[Emma_Girl]

As the banners start to come down and the confetti gets broomed to the side of the ballroom, and the last campaign promise is made, we ask our selves, was it all worth it? I wonder how all of the people that ran for office feel today, the day after what could have been the most accomplishing day of their lives. For the past few months, they've made more promises than ever intended for a child's ear to hear and shook more hands than ever thought sanitary. They've moved from city to city, meeting and greeting new faces, saying and expressing all they felt necessary to convince the "undecided factor" which evidentally determined their fate for last night's results. It's just a thought I have, sitting here, in my home, wondering if they thought all of it was worth it. Although they didn't reach the goal they set themselves for, I would like to hear how they feel today? Is it ever worth it? And what now? Will you remember who any of these candidates that didn't win are in a couple years? Probably not. As much as I'd like to say I don't like politics and as happy as I am now that it's all over, my heart goes out to those who are dealing with their lost victories.

Furthermore, this non-political twenty-four year old is seriously proud of one very interesting female and her name is Nancy Pelosi. Twenty four hours ago, I had no idea who this "mother of five boys" was, but today, she's one I am very impressed with. I am very happy to see a female as the Speaker of the House.

And last but most definately not least, God bless the little man from Montana on the big blooper with the vote recount. I thought that was pretty funny.

[Emma_Girl]

I can't sleep. Another day. Another endless night. To keep myself awake, I'm going to write. Sometimes it's easier to see things written in front of me. It's amazing on how much clear headed you could feel just by writing down your thoughts, your dreams, your hopes of what may feel like a different world but once you look closer, you notice that it's always been the same. Who's to say that the triumphs are a mistake? Who's to say that the journey was not worth it? Who's to say that all along when you thought of one thing, the truth is you were really no that far from the truth. I was in the hospital again today. It has been a regular place for me. It's sad that even the nurses and doctors recognize me. I've spent so many what seemed to be endless nights in emergency rooms and have spoken to so many different medical personnels. I was not in there for myself, but for someone else. Life is so prescious. You never know when you'll take your last breath or when you'll say your last word or when you'll deliver the last smile. In the middle of this crazy world, we forget the simple fact that it could all end faster then any complaint we've ever made about it. The question is, will we now stop complaining or just continue hoping for a miracle?

[Emma_Girl]

I was reading some of my older blog entries and it truly is amazing on everything we seem to forget. All of the little details that take place everyday yet will never be remembered after tomorrow. I laughed at some of the things that happened and frowned at others. Almost a year ago today, I predicted that things would be different in my life. That can't be any further from the truth. A lifetime is filled with so many different experiences that are so confusing and rewarding at the same time. Those butterflies still appear every now and then but they're not as intimidating anymore. I witnessed a very beautiful thing happen today. I've seen what being selfless truly means and for that I am thankful. On the week where most people give thanks to what they are thankful for, I give my appreciation to the love and support my eyes were blessed with witnessing. Seeing is truly believing and for this sight, I am a believer. I also give thanks for having such a wonderful circle of family and friends that adds funny and crazy moments to my life.

[Emma_Girl]

I am never again going to trust Mapquest. It is seriously the devil. Yes, I am clearly convinced that the devil has reincarnated himself to be the navigating system we have come to know as Mapquest. Don't trust the devil. Don't trust Mapquest. :x

I found out today that one of my events will be over lapping a conference I wanted to attend in September of next year. This is really annoying because next year marks the 10th anniversary for this conference and a few friend and I were planning on going. I really hope the conference committee finalizes the date of the conference to be a week later than what I think it would be or else, I will be here in Detroit working instead of in UNC with my Sorors! :cry:

Oh please let it not be the dates I think it'll be. Oh I pray that I am wrong about this. [-o<

Now despite the surprises that came about today, I am having a fabulous hair day. :bunny:

[Emma_Girl]

I've got so many things to finish before 12:30PM!!!!! I've got fabric samples to find, favors to make, and some bridemaids dresses to finalize. We've got a presentation at 4PM for one of our clients and I think she's really going to like what we've got to present to her. Surprisingly, I feel like I actually had a good night's rest, despite the late hang oug with the out of town Sorors! We had a get together last night in Utica and oh my God, there were so many Sisters there! I was so shocked at how many showed up for the event. It's always good to hear of what other chapters are doing! Well, I've had a few surprises this past week. Some good, others really bad-but all valuable in their own contradicting way to this confusing and misleading situation I'm in right now. Would it be awesome if we knew what the future holds? I know it would take away the surprise aspect of it, but you know what, I would rather know then make assumptions. There's just so far you could go with predictions. Anyhow, I guess that's just all part of life. Well, I stopped at a late night Borders last night on my way home and picked up a book I had been eyeing for a while. I'm going to try to read that soon. Earlier yesterday, I was in Royal Oak and saw the Holiday Ice Festival. That was kind of neat to see all of those sculptures made of ice. They usually have ice sculpturing competitions at Noel Night, but I missed that this year. Whoever said Michigan is boring, seriously didn't know all there is to see here. Anyhow, I've got to get ready for my big day. Stay warm!

[Emma_Girl]

1) Congratulations to carameleyez1008 for winning Thread of the Week. Awesome!

2) Thanks to Most_Wanted for forwarding me the Nazir Qoubbani poems. You rock!

[Emma_Girl]

The past 365 days have been really interesting. I've had the opportunity to see so many different things. I've achieved a few life long dreams, one in particular that had me over whelmed with the consequences of my actions. I've made good friends and said good bye to specific friendships I no longer believed in. And through out the months and days, I contemplated on the same thought, wishing and hoping on the same dream. Another year. Another December. Closing in on what is chronologically the end of another chapter. Sitting here and thinking of all that has happened since January 1, 2006 is remarkably refreshing. There's something painful yet comforting about flashbacks that keep us wanting more of these memories we love to remember. As far as the resolutions I set for myself one year ago, I achieved 50% of them. The ones that fell through the cracks are the ones I gave up on. I'm sure I would have been successful had I been more committed towards some of the goals I set for myself to meet. But I think, I'm alright with the decisions I made and the conclusion of those decisions. This just means that I have the help of 2007 to pursue those same dreams. For the New Year, my goals consist of seeing things through. I want to make it my #1 priority to finish what I start.

Happy New Year

[Emma_Girl]

Sad News. Our cat died last week. I honestly never though I would ever cry over a pet, but I cried and I cried hard. I really liked him and now he's gone. It was so sad when I told my little sister that her kitty got ran over. Oh it was seriously one of the hardest thing I have done to see my baby sis cry her eyes out over her best friend. He was put to rest in our backyard. Hateeya. Have you ever lost a pet? Then you'd know how we feel right now. I am never again going to get another pet ever again. I can't take this heart break. I miss that little fella. :( I feel so bad for all those times I'd kick him. All he ever wanted to do is play. I taught him how to 'give me 5'. Oh maybe he was just pushing my hand out of the way, but I like to believe he was giving me 5. :cry: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO, he's gone. :(

[Emma_Girl]

I can't sleep so I'll blog. I'm trying to figure out how to get a video I really want to post on my myspace, but I can't do it. Oh well, it'll have to wait. I just read a blog from exactly a year ago and I remembered exactly what I was writing about. It's funny b/c I was thinking about it yesterday and I didn't realize it that today is the anniversary of that big day. Oh well. So, my article decision was due today and I had no idea what to write about. I was supposed to submit the topic of the article for the April issue by 12AM, but it got a little complicated. The subject I had originally agree to write about back in Sept. for the April issue is no longer relevant to me, so I figured, why not change it. But the hard part is if I change a title decision, then I better have something better to replace it with. Luckily, the Editor was pretty cool about it. She recommended some other topics to write about and I took them, just because I really didn't have anything else better to write about. She event recommended a graphics projects...that's completely different from what I usually due for the magazine. Cross your fingers I don't screw it up.
Well, my eyes are finally getting tired. I better jump in the bed before my energy comes back and I find myself awake for another 3 hours.

Tisbahoon ala khaar

[Emma_Girl]

I love it when I go shopping just to go shopping-when there's nothing in particular in mind to shop for other than to buy whatever I see interesting. In most cases, it's accessorities. ;)

But today is not one of those free 'shop for whatever you want' days. I have to go and get an outfit for a wedding. Yucky.

The fun part is that 'Spring Break' will come with me!!!! :)
Our whole relationship is going to rely on how well she's going to be able to accessorized my outfit. If she doesn't suggest the appropriate necklace, earrings, and bracelet, then it's history!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[Emma_Girl]

This has been a week I am so happy to see come to an end. It's been filled with way too many things to do and too much thinking for my poor head. I took a nap this afternoon after work and I fell asleep until 11PM so now I'm up and awake until the crack of dawn.

P.S. Spring Break definately passed the test!!!!!!!!!!! :)

[Emma_Girl]

I hate today. I really hate today with all my heart. :(

[Emma_Girl]

Boy, has this week been challenging? However, Today was the icing on the cake. I had a lady practically cus me out and blame me for so many different things for absolutely nothing. I had nothing to do with this particular situation, but I just stood there and let her take her anger out on me. She lost her son a few months ago and as much sympathy as I tried to show her, she just told me that I didn't understood where she was coming from no matter what I do or say to her. I know it's hard to loose someone but people seriously need to control themselves. Although she probably hates me right now, I still feel sorry for her. She is completely heart broken and it's sad to think of how emotional she is right now. She went off on me and blamed me for something I had nothing to do with, but I didn't want to seem insensitive to her feelings and cuss her ass out. Although she was absolutely mean to me, I am going to say an extra prayer for her tonight and hope some how some way, she gets to understand that tears won't bring her son back. And that the best thing to do now is to remember all of the good memories she had with him.
:angel:

[Emma_Girl]

The past few weeks have been quite interesting. The Miss Chaldean Pageant was a lot of fun. I met some really good Chaldos out there and the winning contestant is a sweetheart. If you're on my myspace, you'll see lots of backstage photos. I saw Hadeer and Pfizzle_Sister this weekend at a wedding. Hadeer is such a cute dancer. We shook some sharki on the dance floor. I couldn't help but giggle when Nancy Ajram's song came up. And Pfizzle_Sister looked absolutely beautiful.
Well, April is already here and spring love is in the air. :D

[Emma_Girl]

Teacher: "Didn't you promise to behave?"
Student: "Yes, ma'am."
Teacher: "And didn't I promise to punish you if you didn't?"
Student: "Yes, ma'am, but since I broke my promise, you don't have to keep yours."

[Emma_Girl]

Driving home today, I saw one of the most ridiculous things ever. I looked at my right hand and saw a snake out the driver's window in the car next to me. The guy that was driving the car had an actual snake on his lap and the snake's head was out the window just like a puppy does it. And this was not small snake either. It was nasty and really scary looking. It was the most bizarre things I've seen and pretty funny too because that snake was enjoying the breeze. LOL Isn't that funny? And then I looked at the driver and I gave him the most confused and "what the heck" are you thinking look. He just smiled and the snake just continuing enjoying the cool weather. Now, I've heard of people having a snake before and other weird animals, but never would I imagine to see one with its head sticking out the driver's window. :lol:

[Emma_Girl]

Ever find yourself dazed into a though so deep that you become completely oblivious to your surrounding, where even the loudest sound is silenced by the bearing of judgment that move your mind. And as a replacement for the view that clearly stands facing you, your eyes perceive something representative of your thought; thoughts become pictures, pictures become sound, and they all become a real moment. A split second so deep and significant that make you realize, although it was only a few seconds long, you were blown away by your own thinking.
-Emma_Girl

[Emma_Girl]

I have decided to go back to school. My goal is to start grad school no later than January 2008. I have to do this if I want to be Dr. Emma_Girl by 35. ;) And that WILL happen!!!8)

My only issue now is finalizing the route I will take. My ultimate goals are to become an elementary school principal and make my earnings publishing my books. These days, principals have a lot of different types of experiences. It takes a lot more skills than ever before to run a successful school especially considering all of the blue ribbon requirements these districts would kill to meet. I want to pick a degree where I could change fields later if I that's what I want to do. I also don't want to go to the same school as I did for my undergrad but I am limited within the area. My options as of now are Oakland University, U of D Mercy, Marygrove College, and U of M. I also wouldn't mind driving up to MI State a couple times a week, if that's what I have to do but hopefully, I could find a good program locally. :angel:

I’d love to go to College for Creative Studies. It’s one of the best schools in the nation for fine arts, but unfortunately, no matter how much I love my artistic side, it won’t be in my best interest to get that type of degree. I want to go for an MBA, but it won’t cover as much content material I’d need in the educational field. Within the ed., I wouldn’t mind a masters in high learning or maybe even special ed. At first, I didn’t think I was strong enough for special education, but after working with so many different types of kids, I am now ready for special education. I’m for inclusive education and would love the opportunity to provide children with physically disabilities get better schooling. :pleased:

I’m going to continue in this research and really think about exactly what it is that I want to do. But either way, I’m very excited about moving along with my educational plan. I’m going to try and see if I can schedule some meetings with advisors at these different schools to see how these individual programs would work best with my goals.

Ok, seriously, I’m such a dork. I am totally geeked about this whole thing. :applause:

“I don’t want to grow up, I’m a Toys R Us Kid…”

[Emma_Girl]

Christian
By Maya Angelou

When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not shouting "I'm clean livin'."
I'm whispering "I was lost,
Now I'm found and forgiven."
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I don't speak of this with pride.
I'm confessing that I stumble
And need Christ to be my guide.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not trying to be strong.
I'm professing that I'm weak
And need His strength to carry on.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not bragging of success.
I'm admitting I have failed
And need God to clean my mess.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not claiming to be perfect,
My flaws are far too visible
But, God believes I am worth it.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I still feel the sting of pain.
I have my share of heartaches
So I call upon His name.
When I say... "I am a Christian"
I'm not holier than thou,
I'm just a simple sinner
Who received God's good grace, somehow!

[Emma_Girl]

Yesterday was Teachers' Appreciation Day at Staples and they had a bin filled with classroom supplies. It was one of those 'guess how many items are in the bin' games and the person closest to the number gets the whole bin. Well, I guessed and today they called me and told me I won. 8)

Yippy!!!!! :dude:

I won.
I won.

Casa Benita
Casa Benita
Dadadadooooo

(^^^That's for the Eric Cartmen fans.) ;)

[Emma_Girl]

It's after 1:30AM and I am still checking papers. I'm tired. It's been an interesting couple months, I tell ya. My classroom is beautiful. We had Parent Appreciation Night last night and I got compliments from parents on how organized my room was set up. I smiled and thought, "you have no idea how many hours I have spent in this building making it this perfect." But it's all good, because it's done. Now, if I can only get more creative so that these kids turn in their homework on a regular basis. :?I had a 'come to Jesus' speech with a few students who were slacking off. I scared them straight and that's no joke. I've made quite a few phone calls home and the kids realized I wasn't joking when I said I'll call home, even if it's during my lunch if you don't do what you're supposed to do. At first they thought I was bluffing, but then they weren't comfortable when I had their parents on speaker and had the entire class hear their mom yell the shit out of them and made them aware of a spanking that was waiting for them when they got home.:hehehe: Tough, I know, but like I said, school is school and my classroom is no recess. I've formed some great partnerships with some of my parents and they are trying so hard to make sure their kids succeed, but some of their kids just don't care about succeeding and I've got to change that perception. On the other hand, I've got other parents who just don't give a crap and no matter how many letters I have sent home, called, they just don't care. :xThey see my role as their child's official 8-3 babysitter, but boy are they wrong. Anyhow, we've had some amazing projects lately. It's crazy, but I honestly have enjoyed teaching all of the subjects, even math.:shock:

Anyhow, outside my microcosmic world of pencils and sharpeners, I have been quite busy with my personal life. I did some traveling and met some friends I hadn't seen in a very long time. Business is going great. I've had some interesting projects and some last minute stuff that ended very productive. I had a meeting with a potential client earlier this week and I love the fact that I breeze thought these meetings now. It's so funny but I see a client and after that initial meeting, I know exactly what they want and that's making it all run so smoothly. I picked up a few clients just by referral from previous clients and that was awesome.

Anyhow, I didn't realize I was venting so much, so I should go now. I hope everyone on CC has been good. :D Miss ya.

[Emma_Girl]

The decision has been made. I am going for my masters in Special Education. :)

Now, if I can only make up my mind on which school to attend. :?

[Emma_Girl]

I was on my way to work when it happened on I94. I was about 2 miles from my school and I got a flat. I slowly drove to the ramp and found a lit gas station. It was cold. I called for help, told my principal I was going to be late and I waited but I knew I'd have to wait for a while. I tried putting some air in it, hoping that it'll work, but it didn't. Not even fix-a-flat could take care of it. So, I sat, waiting for help to arrive and I though, why not change it myself. I know how. I think I do. I've seen it changed many times. So, I popped my trunk, took out my spare, and got on my knees. I was so nervous and at the same time energetic that I didn't realize how cold it was. To make it an even more uncomfortable situation, I had left my gloves at home. So, I started unscrewing, and boy were those screws tight. And before I knew it, it was done. I was so proud of myself. My nails got all dirty and I even cut a finger. It's ok. I've got a manicure for tomorrow. But ladies, if you haven't done so, learn how to change your tire. It's really helpful.

[Emma_Girl]

Wow, today was a nerve racking experience. I've been waiting for this for weeks and the first stage is complete. My kids took their mid year test today and I can't believe the results my kids had. Overall, my class improved tremendously, almost everyone improve with double digits and two very special kids got more than a 20 point increase. Oh boy, a smile was on my face all day. And every time a new kid got their score of double digits, I smiled even harder. I'm so proud. Oh man this has been a taught year, but its half way through and the results speak for themselves....my kids are actually learning. LOL I’ve been preparing them all week to deal with testing anxieties, but I was more nervous than they were. Anyhow, phase 1 is done. Now comes phase 2 and 3 next week. While in school, I never though of how nervous my teachers must have been when we were being tested. Everything is always so much more clear when you see the other end of the experience.

[Emma_Girl]

TEACHERS' SALARIES

Teachers' hefty salaries are driving up taxes, and they only work 9 or 10 months a year!

It's time we put things in perspective and pay them for what they
do--baby sit!

We can get that for less than minimum wage. That's right. Let's give them $3.00 an hour and only the hours they worked, not any of that silly planning time.

That would be $19.50 a day (7:00 AM to 3:30 (or so) PM with just 25 min. off for lunch).

Each parent should pay $19.50 a day for these teachers to baby-sit their children.

NOW...
How many do they teach in a class, 30? So that's $19.50 x 30 =
$585.00 a day. However, remember they only work 180 days a year!!!
we're not going to pay them for any vacations.

LET'S SEE....
That's $585 x 180= $105,300 per year.

What about those special teachers and the ones with master's degrees?


Well, we could pay them minimum wage, and just to be fair, round it off to $7.00 an hour. That would be $7 x 6 1/2 hours x 30 children x 180 days = $245,700 per year.

Wait a minute--there' s something wrong here!

Average teacher salary $50,000/180 days = $277/per day/30 students =
$9.23/6.5 hours = $1.42 per hour per student. A very inexpensive
baby-sitter and they even try - with your help - to EDUCATE your
kids!

WHAT A DEAL....
And the parents don't even have to buy us pizza!
Make a teacher smile; send this to someone else who appreciates
teachers...

[Emma_Girl]

I was running some errors today when it happened. I saw someone wearing a t-shirt I had designed for an event a few years ago. I smiled as the young lady passed by me. I thought of the many sketches we went through to finalize the design and colors that we had debated on until we had found the perfect one. And then, I reminisced some more on all of the many other t-shirts and promos we had manufactured in that 4 year span. Good times. Good times.

[Emma_Girl]

:cry: I lost my phone. This is so annoying. My head aches as I think of how much of an inconvenience this is for me.

[Emma_Girl]

Well, it's been a fabulous summer. Great R&R! Although it feels like it went by quickly, I still had a great chance to catch up with friends and to get a chance to have fun. Throughout the year, my work schedule can get demanding which is why it's very importance to take advantage of the relaxing opportunities of the summer months. One thing I like about the past couple weeks is that I've become much more organized with my material. It's still not complete but I'm trying to get rid of clutter as much as possible. I went through my stuff and passed down items that I no longer used, but one thing that I just couldn't downsize was my books. Speaking of which, I picked up a book last year during my random shopping days and I never got a chance to read it, Oscar Wilde's The Picture of Dorian Gray. It's been on the shelf for quite sometime and I noticed it today as I was roaming through the much needed organization. I'll let u know how I feel about the story. It was recommended by a close friend whose advice in books I value greatly which is why I think I'm going to probably enjoy reading this Wilde edition.

Other than that, things have been wonderful. I'm thinking of a new hair cut, but not sure which one. Either way, I'll wear it long for a while. Perhaps some more layers.

On a deeper thought, I'd like to discuss destiny. Some might believe either side of the scale when it comes to how much control we have of our destined roles. Do we play a part in deciding how the future comes into play or are we all just puppets of an already written screen play? Have the characters in our lives been filled based on their abilities to add to our lives or do our actions affect them more than they impinge on us? And why do we face such importance on knowing what will happen tomorrow? Is the suspense too strong for us to handle or do we try all in our power to predict because we can't handle the fact that not knowing what will happen scares us too much?

[Emma_Girl]

I love this time of the year. :D Meeting up with familiar faces, joining in on the laughter and buying random gifts for a secret Santa are all in good fun. It’s been a nice couple weeks. I’ve had a chance to see friends I don’t see on a regular basis anymore. Life is good when you don’t see each other for months, or even years at a time, but when you do reunite; it’s as if that space of time never took place.

Anyhow, last night was amazing. The Detroit Opera House never looked so good. The production was so well put together that it’s no surprised it received that many Tony’s. But yet again, it’s Broadway and you shouldn’t expect anything short of genius. As I was sitting there, midst of the full house turnout, I was inspired to continue doing what I had set out years ago. Isn’t it funny on how you can remember something while doing something completely different? Well, receiving inspiration and having the will to do something are two completely different things. I’ll let that reminiscing moment bleed into my list of New Year resolutions. Perhaps, the enthusiasm won’t die out after the ball is dropped. :?

Well, be sure to spend this time with loved ones. Nothing is ever more important than the ones that mean so dearly to your heart. After all the wrapping paper and bows are crumbled to the side, I hope you realize that the package inside was on a self all along. The real gift was the thought behind it and the initiative taken to make you happy. Happy Holidays CC! :love:

[Emma_Girl]

All week I hope for just a little more time to sleep, another minute to finish a dreadful task, or just a day to sit back and do nothing. My days are usually filled with loud and chaotic moments, making me waiting anxiously for the night’s shadows. I usually leave Sunday for my rest and relaxation, recuperating before launching off for another week’s activities. I purposely avoid scheduling anything on Sunday for the soil purpose of giving myself a chance to relax; however, instead of embracing the much deserved break I pray for all week, I usually get bored by doing ‘nothing’. I need to learn how to just sit and do ‘nothing’. I have gotten used to moving fast and I don’t know how to just sit down and enjoy the breeze like I used to do.

On a side note, I got rid of 4 storage boxes today. I have a lot of organizing to do and today was a major step. I have about 25 more to go. Over the years, I’ve accumulated so much material that it’s time to go over them and either use them, cut them down, or give them to someone who can use them. One thing’s for sure, I am less of a hodge podge than I was when I was younger. If I stay consistent and do some organizing every weekend, then I’ll probably have it all cleared out by the end of the month. Organizing all of that material was somewhat liberating. Nothing like some early spring cleaning to beat the winter blues.

[Emma_Girl]

There are times when a gloomy state will motivate me to lean towards a change of atmosphere or a daring adventure, but today, I went to my favorite author to boost up my spirit. I read one of my favorite Blake poems and I remembered why I liked this author so much. This poem is so much deeper than Blake is given credit. His comparison between good and evil is nicely represented with the tiger and lamb. Could the same God that created the gentle lamb have given us the dangerous tiger? To this, I compare the good and bad times we go through in our lives. Could the same God that gives us the joyous moments and the loveable companion give us the pain and sorrow? And if that’s the case, then why is it important for both to be present? Do I appreciate the comforting nature of a lamb as I am reminded of the vicious tiger? Do the tearful moments make me think back of the laughter and hold closer to the jokes that were once taken for granted? Something to ponder on…

The Tiger
By William Blake (http://www.daypoems.net/poets/126.html)
1757-1827

TIGER, tiger, burning bright
In the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye
Could frame thy fearful symmetry?

In what distant deeps or skies
Burnt the fire of thine eyes?
On what wings dare he aspire?
What the hand dare seize the fire?

Could twist the sinews of thy heart?
And when thy heart began to beat,
What dread hand and what dread feet?

What the hammer? what the chain?
In what furnace was thy brain?
What the anvil? What dread grasp
Dare its deadly terrors clasp?

[When the stars threw down their spears,
And water'd heaven with their tears,
Did He smile His work to see?
Did He who made the lamb make thee?

Tiger, tiger, burning bright
In the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye
Dare frame thy fearful symmetry?

[Emma_Girl]

So, I spent the whole holiday season getting ready to start grad school in January. I got accepted at Marygrove College and was ready to begin my schooling, but something wasn't right. First off, I wasn't pleased with their services and wasn't interested in receiving the same service for the next few years (God knows how long it'll take). Also, I felt like I was rushing it and it just didn't feel right. Now, I'm getting nervous again about this whole process of trying to get in a good program. I want to start school, but it's just not working out. It really means a lot to me to get in a good program, but I'm finding it harder and harder as the days and years go by. [-o< oh Lord.

I know challenges have their way of making you stronger, but they also have a way of breaking you into fragments that are just too small.

[Emma_Girl]

So, I'm back at this whole grad school circus. Getting this application completed is stressful. I changed my mind about Marygrove and now I am looking at other schools that offer the degree I am interested in receiving.

You set goals for yourself. You see the result. You see the victory, but for some reason the mission becomes harder as you are going through it. Every time I set a goal, it always seems realistic, like there's nothing that can stop me from reaching what I set for myself. But why is it that the road seems less challenging in the beginning and at the end of the challenge? In the beginning, you're so pumped up with excitement, that you become oblivious to the hardship and hyperventilating moments that will make the road to your Emerald City so tough. And at the end, when the challenge has been reached, you quickly glimpse at the traveled course and although it was not an easy one, you become so consumed with excitement, that you quickly look pass all of the challenges that you overcame. So, the real challenge is to get through the journey. As simple as it may sound, it's also the most complicated part of it all. The road is harder when you're the traveler. But as you sit in the driver's seat, you control the route, the length of the drive, and the final destination.

So, as I continue driving on what seems to be the most bumpy road, I try to remind myself that I'm from Michigan (Get it? Michigan...bumpy roads??? :lol: LOL Damn, you messed it up if I have to explain it to you. :( ) Alright, alright, alright, all jokes aside, our challenges only make us stronger. Keep that in mind, boys and girls.

[Emma_Girl]

It's way pass my bedtime and the alarm will go off in only a few hours, but I can't go to sleep. So, let's recap.

Less than 2 weeks left and I am so excited about the R & R that's to come. I tell ya, it is much needed. Seriously, I know I am tired when I can't complete a sudoku game and this weekend, it took all of my concentration to complete a game that would have taken me 1/5 of the time to complete. So, to say the least, I am in much need of this summer and I have NOTHING planned. All I want for my summer vacation is to sleep, be home, and just relax. Nothing elaborate. Nothing crazy. Just rest and relaxation. And I don't care to travel now either. All I honestly want is to not wake up before the sunlight and operate 18 hour days like I have for the past few months. But, that's all in the past, because there is light at the end of the tunnel and it's called SUMMER VACATION.

:D

[Emma_Girl]

Alright, I can't sleep so it's a great opportunity for another blog. :) Long over due.

I've got my Youtube clips on random and it's truly amazing on how certain songs capture such profound memories. I've been sitting here listening to random artists that I've added to my list, each song different in its own way as you can imagine. Anyhow, I was taken back by the memories and before I knew it, I was sitting here staring at the screen and reminiscing. Oh the time passes by so quickly when you’re not looking at the clock. As the hour hand moves from minute to minute, I hear a song and it reminds me of another specific time in my life: some good memories and others left to be forgotten. Have you ever caught yourself day dreaming after hearing a song? I know it might sound very corny, but there are some songs that truly do take me back.

Who knew that something as simple as music can be so personal? Who knew that the notes can trigger memories that have been stored and locked away for such a long time? It’s an invasion of thought and privacy; a clear yet confusing way to explain the fact that sometimes the most random and unexpected things can happen. And while you’re living your life, there’s a song playing in the background. Sometimes the scenario overlaps the message of the lyrics, and there are other times when your own conclusion brings a whole different meaning to the words that are being sung. Either way, that song you hear at that very moment becomes a symbol of what took place. There are some things that are not meant to be, they just happen. And it just happened that a certain song was playing as your memory was being created.

Good Night.

[Emma_Girl]

Stupid dog destroyed my favorite Steve Madden pair. :x And I wanted to wear them with my outfit Friday. Stupid, Stupid dog.

[Emma_Girl]

Another year and another try at life. Another try at what I want to achieve and another try to learn exactly what it is that I want. This time when most of us are setting up resolutions that we want to achieve within the next 12 months, our willpower is at its peak. We’ve got our eyes on the prize and we're full of confidence and determined to reach whatever it is that we're setting for ourselves. Ever wonder why that is? Ever wonder why we are so full of confidence at the beginning of the year? I think it's because we see this as a fresh start on whatever it is that we desire. We see the beginning of the year as an opportunity to reach whatever it is that we want for ourselves and somewhere between reality and fiction, we see no hurtle in front of us. We look at the previous year as just another lesson and no matter how impossible or unhappy we were, we view January as a new opportunity and forget all that took place before this very moment. Yet, somewhere in the middle of the road we find ourselves struggling with whether or not our goal was ever realistic and before we know it, we are dragging ourselves to pick up the inspiration we had found in ourselves in the beginning of the year before the deadline drops the ball on New Year’s Eve.

I wish for all of you to have the motivation that's in you right now to last all year. Last year, I set a very important goal for myself and I was determined to reach it by December. I saw no other option. For the first six months of the year, I was on track and was exactly where I wanted to be, but then life took its toll on me and the breaks were on this mobile dream catcher I had found myself to be. I'm sure a lot of people can relate this to that point in your life when you thought you were exactly where you wanted to be and then the road trip took an unexpected turn.

Through these turns, try to remember that there's more to life than what's obviously standing in front of us. True happiness is within the moment when you learn to appreciate the small things that money can't buy. The true friends are those that are there when no one wants anything to do with you. Life is beautiful and precious. What is normal to you will not necessarily be so next year and you have to find the will to know the difference between what's right and what's right for you. Happy New Year!