SouSou's blog.......

[~*SouSou*~]

well yeah i donno but i just felt lik writing today....i just felt lik getting everything out....
i just got back from work and im really tired.....this whole week was kind of strange..... yesterday i was going to work and i felt lik walking so i did and out of no where my ex appear in his car and he offers me a ride to work{i havent seen him in a long time...he looked exactly the same, the same smile the same face but there was this huge difference which is we r not togethr anymore.....{{{i really want to go and sit with him in the car cus i really miss those days when he used to drive me to work and picks me up also....we used to dirve everyone crazy....}}}}but well i said no........well yeah i went to work and i was real sad and also i've been having this real bad headache....my parents went over savo's house and i really wanted to go but i had to work...man i promised her that i would go visit but well i hope she'll understand......sorry habibti....
ummm yeah..welll now im setting here nothing to do im just so bored.....my head is killing me.....it hurts reall bad but well i really hate doctors i really dont wanna go to a doctor.....but well i promised my mom that i will cus i've been having this headache for a while now and its reall bad...it gets to the point where i just wanna hit my head so hard and cry.......well yeah
ummm well wat else...i gotta go take a shower and do my hair and go to sleep if no one come to visit which i hope not.....well yeah bye bye for tonite....and well see wats gonna happen tomorrow......

[~*SouSou*~]

hey bloggy its me again..well i dont hav alot of time ot write that much but well im soo tired i didnt sleep the whole night....and now im gonna go to work...this life sucks...i hate it....
well yeah at 1;30 in the morning i got a phone calll and it was my ex....welll i didnt feel lik picking up so i just didnt...and now im wondering why did he call me.....ahh who cares i really dont care about guys no more.....
i need to concetrate more on my skool and family now i really gotta forget about anything that is stressing me out.....so yeah i still hav that headache and its killing me now so for sure im gonna go and see a doctor this week.....hopefully tis nothing but just stress and all that....
well yeah im also sad cus my mom is not feeling good at all neither...she might go to kemeo phirapy...i kno i spelled it wrong but well who cares....so yeah im really woried about her...i wish its me and not her...i love her to death...if its not her then i wouldnt b alive now......anyways i got to go now i hav to go get readyy and go to work.....


oh yeah tomorrow is skooll....wow.....our break went by soo fast....and i regret it cus i didnt do much other than work and more work.......but well wat can i do....

i just wanna go out and hjav fun for one day....lo0l savo i promised her that i will go out with her and go hav fun for one day....but well i'll se wats gonna happpen
bye bye for now....

[~*SouSou*~]

welll i donno why am i awake but i really cant sleep......i had a really long day....it was the worst day ever....
i started skool and it was soo messed up....my sceduale was messed up and i went around thw college trying to get my new scheduale but well my teacher wasnt in his office and i was real mad....
welll yeeah on top of that i had a real bad headache....i was literly crying today cus of my head.....
well yeah finally i aint working no more.....only weekends......which is good cus i need some rest..i used to work 7 days a week and go to skool also that was alot thats why i had to cut down on work now.....
well yeah now my uncle is over my house....and ppl r coming over so i better go get ready and prepare everything....
well yeah and i turned my phone off today cus all these ppl calling me....i was going crazy......its just so much...
well yeah today at college this guy came up to me and asked me out lo0l it was funnny....me and my friends were laughing at him real bad...hahahha......anywas im gonna go now and i donno may b i could get some sleep cus im really tired.....i really need to go see a doctor.....im always dizzzy and i dont eat anything at all but only drink water.......i kno its not good but well i donno wats wrong with me......ahhh well i guess this life and this is how its suposed to b......

sousou

[~*SouSou*~]

hey bloogy
well im at skool now and im soo damn tired.....i woke up at 5 this morning and yeah i slept at 2 well yeah skool is back which means alot of work and all that.....
ummm well yeah im on a break right now and im waiting for my friend.....i miss himm soo much wallah....
well yeah yup yup mey b u wont belive it but i aint working until friday... as i said i need some rest so yeah i called my manager and i told him that i cant work cus im gonna finish skool late this week.....well yeah im gonna b stuck in skool until 5 today..im allready tired wallah i can be=arely stand up...and stupid me i wore these high heels......ahhh well i'll b all right......
ummmm i donno but i really wanna go out this weekend.....well yeah my x called me and asked me if i wanted to hangout with him and his friends but i really dont want to cus i dont want those feelings to come back to me when we used to hang out and hav fun all the time......i gotta get over him and move on with my life....
well yeah everyone around me is talking about the valentine's party and i got 2 guys asking me to go with them but i rally dont feel lik it...i mean they r real nice and all that and i will hav a good time with them but i really dont feel lik going with no guys.....im thinking about calling up savo and ask her if she wants to come with me but only gurls no guys.......
anyways yeah hopefully everything will b allright today i really dont want to have no bad days lik yesterday.......and hoopefully my dadddy will b home at 5 so he could come and pick me up cus i rally dont want to take the damn bus..i mean i dont mind but ssometimes its annnoyying....well yeah i gtf now and i will probebly come back later and right much more......

sousou

[~*SouSou*~]

well yeah here u go im back again..... welll yeah my friend went with her b/f and im here bored all alone......
i hav a break until 2 off this sucks i hate breaks wallah they r soo annnoying.....but well i saw kit kat and omg habibi he was mad cus they changed his scheduale and i really felt bad for him......omg me and him got so close in the past few months....he is a really good friend......i wish all the best.....welll yeah i was waiting for sava to call but she didnt and i turned off my phone now cus its dying...lo0l...im soo bad i havent charged it in lik 3 days now....but well its all good....
well yeah i hav to call sinan when i get home cus i think he is mad at me cus everytime he calls my phone is ooff and i dont call him back thats been 4 days now.....well walla i try to make everyone happpy but its soo hard.....
anyways i keep on thinking about my friend...well her parents found out that she was dating this muslim guy and i donno wat happened now....my parents and her parents are after me now...they keep on asking me if i knew about her and that guy and i didnt tell them.....well i did kno but i couldnt just go and tell her parents i mean its hard....i told her to b careful and all that and that she could find a better guy then him and all that but well things happen and thats how life is...we always learn from ourr mistakes..i feel bad for her now...i mean i havent talked to her or anything.....but hopefully she will finally find her way in life and im praying for her....
well yeah im gona go now and i will come back later if i had time.....

sousou

[~*SouSou*~]

hey bloggy
well today im kind of depressed and i donno why im really confused....well the reason is cus yesterday i called my ex and i told him that i wanted to see him and when he came to c me i told him that i really wanna b hiis friend only which means i dont want him to talk about the past no more and about wat happened between us and i also told him that there is no way that me and him could go back together...it was the hardest thing that i ever did in my whole entire life...i was dying on the inside but i could show him that,,,,so yeah he was pissed at me and all that but i really had to do this cus to me if someone loves me and they really mean it thenn that means they should trust me and if not then i wouldnt call it real love,....well yeah i was about to cry but i just tried not to...so well yeah no we r only friends and i kno its hard but in his head he had this whole idea about us going back together and that we r goiing to get married and all that and well i mean he is a great guy no matter wat the other bitches say about him cus i used to agree with them b4 but when i met him and i got to kno him i really realised that he is a really nice person and every gurl would wish to stay with him.....well yea i wish i could go back with him but lik wat i said i cant go back with soomeone who cant trust his own self......and i understand why....i was the first chaldean gurl friend he had.,.,,,he introduced me to his family and all that i mean it was real serious and out of no where we misunderstood each other and thats when i had to let it go.....well yeah...thats life....
well yeah on top of that im really pissed today cus i came to skool and all of my classes r canceled and stupid teachers didnt let us kno so i was just sitting in the caf wasting my time with my friends and all that....
well yeah i was with kit kat and omg he is a sweetheart.....but well he went home and he left me all alone here......ny other friend went with her bf to the beach...i mean omg...they r crazy wallah i kno its not that cold outside but why would u go to the beach if ur not gonna swim or waear ur swim suit...lo0l./.i was making fun of her...hahahaha....but well yaeah and ohhhh im sooo stupid i let my baterry die cus i havent charged it for about 4 days so yeah my phone aint working now....lo0l.....
well yeah omg i got all my things done today...everything about skoolll so acually i was kind of happy about that.............

anyways im gonna go right now.....im really tired im going home and im gonna take a long shower and i will probebly go to sleep if no one come over and yeah i will charge my phone for sure....lo0l....

see yeah//

sousou

[~*SouSou*~]

well hey bloggy..i kno i havent been writing in a long time but well now that i got cought up on everything i hav finally time for myself.........
well yeah i really dont understand this life...why is it so messed up and why cant i just get along with it, i mean i;ve been going through alot lately and ppl still dont understand that i really need time for myself............its crazy its just tooo much...........family problems and my mom who is sick and also my sis who is in her teenage years and its scares me to death cus i really dont lik the ppl she hangs out with i mean they act way too old for their age........OH god..............another thing i hav skool and my dad and his problems with the church omg .......im going crasy...........and i cant tell that no one cares.............
well yeah everyone asks me to b there for them and do things for them but when its time for me to ask them something.............the most simplest thing they make a big deal out of it..........omg i just had enough.......
well yeah i was talking to my mom that i really wanna go on a vacation cus i cant take it no more and i wanna take somebody with me....im thinking about sava.........habibi i love that gurl u guys dont even knoo how much.........she is always there for me no matter wat............u kno wat yeah i will ask her if she wanna come with me to quebec in march break we will go see my best friend christina and also my kool uncle....lo0l......i really need to get away from this whole routine....i just had enough.....................well yeah no that i hav classes until 10 at nite and i woke up at 5 am im really tired and i need to eat something.......i kno im crasy i dont take care of myself but wallah there is barely anytime for me.....and yeah i quit my job and i thought that i will hav some time but well its just worst now........omg this life is tooo much............
anyways i gtg now and i will get back to u later on hopefully.........

[~*SouSou*~]

hey bloggy
omg i missed u soo much
well yeah im sorry ive been busy in the past few days...omg this whole thing about nite skool is killing me....its jjust toooooooo much to deal with now..... well yeah now im at skool doing nothing....im acually done and i could go back home but kit kat called me and told me to wait for him cus he is coming well yeah im waiting now.......ummm yeah well i was talking to rafid and he is a really noce guy....lo0l this acually the first time me and him talk this much....but well yeah......omg i misss going out and all that....welll now my best friend is on a plane and on her way to cuba i wish i went with her lo0l...we were gonna hav alot of fun....but well i cant wait for march break im going to quebec and finnally i will go on vacation and get away from windsor......
well yeah so now everything is allright with me....everything is going lik it should go and im happy about that cus seriously i was going crazy in the past few months....well yaeah i wonder is it cus there is no guy in my liff now or is it cus of something else?????i donno.....this question comes on my mind soo many times and i wonder wats the right answer for it.....aww welll......
omg good news my mom went to the doctor and they said that she is doing better and that her cancer is not growing and that she is acually doing much better now then she was b4...omg u dont even kno i was soo happy i swear to god......i was soo scared that they will say that she needed another surgery....but thank god she is ok now.....
well yeah my dad is thinking about going on another vacation and im really mad cus this time i really wanna go with him.....well yeah he is thinking about going to tennesse...with his best friend and i raelly wanna go even tho i dont kno alot of ppl there but i just wanna get out of windsor cus its crasy......
well yeah ....wait my phone is ringing........................................... .................................................. .................................................. .......................................
omg im really pissed......i just hate it....kit kat just called and he said that he aint coming so i just waisted 2 hours waiting for him....omg i cant belive he did that....im really mad now......omg i cant belive it........ :x :x :x :x :x :x :x :x :x :x :x :x :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry:
so yeah i guess im just gonna go home now and relax today cus i got nothing to do...i cooked and i cleaned the house allready.....yupyy im happy but well im alil upset that kit kat didnt come....but well im gonna see him tomorrow for sure lo0l.....so yeah omg i hav to call sinan and thank him about the kool ride that he gave me yesterday....lo0l......he is such a great guy...i wish him all the best.....ummmm well i donno wat else is gonna happen today but well hopefully it'll b allright.....well anyways im gonna go bye bye..and i will get back to u asap.......

sousou :love: :love: :love:



ps....i miss him soo much....omg i cant imagine that he got me thinking of him this much.......i was talking to him yesterday on msn and i just wanted to see him reall bad.......miss u hun....


sometimes i sit during the day and i smile and laugh at all the memories that we had together but at the same time i cry cus i kno its over..... :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry:

[~*SouSou*~]

hey hey
well yeah its a new day lo0l......well ummm yeah last nite i cried and i really dont wanna go into too much details but i was really mad and upset.......but welll today i came to skool and im feeling much better after that kit kat and my friend zeinab made me feel better....
well um yeah i woke up at 5 in the morning cus my friend send me a text msg and my phone was on loud and all i could hear is "always there when u call,,,always on time" lo0l its my ringtone i love that song...well yeah i tried to sleep but i couldnt so i was really mad at that also...but well.....i saw her this morning and i was yelling at her lo0l...i love my friends i swear they r always there for me...well and im talking about real friends and not the one that go and **** around and come back to me and try to act tthat they r all innnocent.....well yeah thats how its been for many years me and my friends....i really didnt hav a close friend ...well except savo but me and her stopped spending time together in a while so i started hanging around with different ppl and i really regret it cus those bitches think that they r all that and how they act all innocent infront of ppl but when i became their friend and i started talking to them well i found out wat kind of gurls they were...anyways lets change the subjet lo0l.....ummm welll yeah i hav work today and its gonna b my last week working and after im applying somewhere else just for a change lo0l......well yaahhh........................
OMG Valentine's is coming soon and im really happy for the first time.....its wired im not in a relationship but im happy and in the past years when i had a bf and when valentine's day come it was lik the worst day in my life but this year is the best..im loving it........hopefully it will stay lik this for eva..................
well yeah im kind of tired but im sure i will make it throw the day hopefully with my smile on my face.....l0l......its funny....after alll that crying last nite im acually smilling today its kind of wired but well.....
ohh i really wanna go to detroit this weekend and goo shopping...lo0l....i havent been out shopping for a while now and its wired cus i usually go shopping all the time on the weekends......but well hopefully this weekend....................
also i hav to go to church on sunday cus i havent been to church sincce christmas and my mom and my dad r after me......well yaeh its just that i used to work on sundays and i used to b real tired but well hopefully i will go this sunday or may b next sunday.............

anyways i gtg now im waiting for kit kat now.....well im done class at 2 and he is wiilll b done at 3 so yeah im gonna wait for him for about an hour so we could take the bus together.....lo0l....he is a sweet heart i swear......

bye bye
sousou :love: :love: :love:

[~*SouSou*~]

well hey bloggy....i dont feel good at all...i feel soo low and soo sad
well yeah this week has been going real bad for me and i dont kno wat to do....

um well where to start....there is soo much that i wanna talk about....umm yeah my mom is sick again and they want her to go back to the hospital and al that and im really worried about her....well yeah i will do anything just to mak my mom happy no matter wat....i wish it was me and not her....
:( :cry:

well yeah omg im doing bad in skool...and i donno why i swear i dont feel lik going to skool anymore i just wanna sit home next to my mom and all that but well wat can i do...and yeah i got a schollarship also and im doing bad ohh god could u plss help me and tell me wats wrong with me...... :(

well yeah and ohhh this guy is getting on my nervese he is from the state and he wanna come and ask for my hand and he allready callled my dad and all that and i think they r coming ovr my house on friday nite i hate it why me,,,,i really dont want no realtionship now at all.....im really depressed.....

well yeah and also my friend plsss help him god....he is going thro alot also ....i feel so bad for him i swear but well wat can i do...i wish i could take all that saddness away from him and just let him live his life.....i really doo love him...i mean he is the best....welll yeah i donno wat else to say other than im really depressed and all that i just need to get away from here....i wanna get out of windsor and go somewhere where i could relax and not think about all these things in my head....

well yeah yesterday i was talking to my friend on msn and he mentioned this gurl that i was her bst friend until that i found out that she is a bitch and that she was lying to me the whole time i mean i really regret it that i introduced her to my family and all that and i used to trust her more than anything in this world and out of no where i find out that she is just a liar and i hate that cus i really called her my sis and even more...but well yeah he told me that she played him b4 and that she is still playing guys until now and that she didnt learn from her mistakes and for a second i felt sorry for her and i just wantd to call her up and talk to her but the problem is that she is the kind of gurls that dont listen and all that so i just gave up on her and i kno that she is gonna lie to me lik she used to b4...omg there is soo much going on in my life now and i really dont kno wat to dooo....well yeah

anyways my lil sis finished her exams in high skool and i hope she did good cus i prayed for her i want her to b the best i swear cus i kno she is smart and all that i dont want her to make mistakes and all that lik me i want her to take her life seriously and acually get everything she wants done....

well yeah me and my dad had this lil talk yesterday and he told me that he is not happy with wat im doing now and i was really upset i mean i dont get him...im taking business now and im gonna go to pre nursing next year and he is still not satisfied ohh god just tell me wat to do so i could acually satisfy him and make him happy for once......well yeah i mean i think he should b proud of me cus ummm well i do alot i take care of my mom and i take care of my sibilings and all that also on top of that i work and i go to skool wat else does he want...im going crasy wallah....its not lik im failing or anything at all i acually hav good marks in skool and thats why i recived 3 scholarship i mean omg wat else does he want..... :x

well yeah about that valentine's party im might not go cus i was supposed to go with sava and since i havent heard a thing from her so i dont kno if she still wanna go or not and also my cousins asked me to go with them but im not sure well kit kat asked me to go with him and i acually said yes lo0l this guy acuualy got me but well today he came and he had some bad news so he cant go no more and i understand cus me too if thing s stay lik this then i aint going to no parties at alll.... :(

well thats about it and i will try my best to come and write here as much as i can cus i really miss it......
welll im yeah i wanna call sava and talk to her and also i wanna call sinan cus he is mad at me cus i dont call or even pick up my phone when he calls and i barely go on msn but hopefully he will understand.....and yeah well so much in soo lil time...wat can i say...
anyways gtg now and i will seee may be things will get better hopefully.....

:angel: [-o< oh god i kno that i aint perfect and that i always make mistakes and i dont go to church or anything lik that and oh god u still listen to my prayers and acually give me wat i want,....i realllly donnno wat to say im just speechless now... :( :cry:

[~*SouSou*~]

he bloggy
well here we go again i acually thought that everything willb ok after that my mom had the surgery but guess wat i was wrong...
she is really sick again and this time it aint good at all....i wish it was me and not her....i mean i love that woman even if she wasnt my mom...everyone who meets her love her to death....
well yeah i woke up this morning at her voice , she is really sick and all that but poor her she doesnt wanna say a thing cus she doesnt wanna hurt us.....OMG why is this happpening to her.....why?????why not me????i mean im the bad gurl and i deserve everything but why her god why???could u hear me????could u plss answer me????why her????say something whyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy???why r u so quit why????
OMG :( :( :cry: :cry: i kno i shouldnt say this but im just soo fed up with everything.......
plsss god help her.....i kno she went thro alot and i wish it could happen to me and not her.....
well yeah im at skool i cant go to class cus i cant concetrate and i really donno wat to do......im soo stressed over everything.....god forgive me if im mad and if i bitch at ppl these days....i mean u kno exactly wats going on with me and wats in my life and how i think.....
well yeah she might go to the hospital again and this time it aint good at all....she is not eating at all...and this is not good cus it means that the cancer is still moving in her body and that its growing and i kno she knows that but she doesnt wanna tell us anything......i love her to death and if anything happens then OMg i just dont wanna talk about it at all...
well yeah this morning my dad gave me a ride to the bus stop and we talked about my mom and i think.....well im 10000% sure that there is something that he doesnt wanna tell me and i kind of hav the feelings that its not good and i really i donno wat to do and im not ready to face any loss in my family........i kno im responsible enough for my age but still i cant take care of a family without my mom being there with me.....OMG :cry: :cry:
welll yeah 2 days a go it was the last day to hand in ur application to college for next year and stupid me i didnt remember and now im gonna hand it in late and i donno wats gonna happen...i donno if im gonna get accepted or not....i donno...and on top of that im applying for pre-nursing or pharmacy thecnitian and omg i need biology or chemstry and i dont hav none of these so i hav to go to nite skool in may until july and im really mad.....well if things dont go well with my mom and my family then i dont give a damn about education im just gonnna quit and just sit at home and take care of their needs....
im sooo stressed...omg i love my friends i swear....i mean kit kat was trying to make me feel better this morning and also my friend Zeinab but no matter wat still its my mom and that means its my life....
welll yeah Sorry guys i kno i hav been bitchy lately i swear i kno and im sorry i kno that i aint picking up my phone no more i kno that im acting stupid and wired sometimes i kno that im not there for u anymore but plss try to understand that im going thro alot these days.... :cry:
omg i also miss sava i really need to talk to that gurl...i meaan she just calm me down all the time thats wat i love about her and she talk to me lik an adult and she thinks the same way i think i love that gurl to death and sorry babe if i havent talked to u in a while and hopefully u will understand hunni...
well yeah im gonna go now and im gonna go call my mom and see wats going on and if she is feeling any better since this morning.....GOD plss help her....i kno that im a sinner and i dont even deserve to b one of ur daughters but plsss just help this woman.....i kno we all make mistakes but i kno this woman has faith in u and plss let her go back the way she was not for me but for the sake of my lil brother and sister.....

:cry: :cry: :cry: :cry:

[~*SouSou*~]

omg long time.....i kno im really sorry but this is life...
well yeah today is Valentine;s day and omg my friends are the best wallah...i mean they kno that im gonnab at skool frim 8am until 10pm at nite and im really tired so they choose to celebrate valentine with me at skool...thats soo sweet...
well yeah i got a rose its sooo sweet from Hadool....i got a necklace and earinings from kit kat...omg i love them they r beautiful just lik him...lo0l... :love:
well yeah i guess god heard my prayers and now im doing better....skool is better...i got a new job at tim hurtons and im starting on friday...well my mom is doing alot better...and im realy happy about that......
well everything in my life changed...alot of things r going all right and a just lik how i want it....which is really good...
well yeah this weekend my best friend christina is coming from quebec and we gonna chill all the week together..omg i miss that gurl...she is a really close friend of mine, she is more than a sister to me...i love hre to death..
well yeah yuppy my hair is straight and it looks just fine i love it....welll um wat else...omg yeah in 2 days i hav good news that im gonna share with my close friends and hopefully it will work out...just pray for me and inshala everything will b allright...
umm yeah kit kat bought a car and omg im really happy...just step by step...thats good..:love:
well yeah i miss my murder inc savo...lo0l she better hav some time for me this weekend so we could hang out and drive the whole city wild...lo0l..
umm well im gonna get going now ...i hav a class at 6 and im waiting for kit kat to come and pick me up with his car cus i wanna hav some fun on valentine's day...lo0l....
yalla bye bye
:love: :love: :love: :love: :jive: :jive:

[~*SouSou*~]

hey bloggy
im extremly happy today...so yeah today i hav a long break and me and my friend are going again to find a wedding dress....omg its such a hard thing to do...but ahh well im happy and hopefully everything will b allright...
well yeah i have to call sava and talk to her and tell her my good news lo0l...not alot of ppl kno about it cus ive been keeping it a secret from everyone and i really feel bad but well everytime i tell the whole wide world it ends up soo bad so this time i choose not to and look it worked this time.....well yeah almost still we gotta wait for my parents...:love:
well yeah yesterday was valentine's day and i kno that ppl celebrate this day once a year but when i met him i guess im celebrating valentine everyday and im really happy about that lo0l.....
wow for once my life is acually getting better....cant belive it,....lo0l
well yeah skool is fine..and my mommy is just getting better day by day and im really happy about that....she has no more pain which is wired cus usually she is always in pain but these days she is really happy i guess cus i told her the good news i donno...i asked god for help so he send me an angel to help me and my family....
i mean alot of things hav changed around......and i donno wats going on but im always smiling and im always happy and i really dont wanna b bothered at all....
ahhh welll...yah this weekend my best friend is coming as i said b4 and i guess im gonna take her and sava to go shopping and and go eat at a restaurant and we will talk about all the stuff we used to talk about b4...omg imiss both of them....i really do...i mean they r my best friends and im really proud of it....and proud of them...i love them soo much.....
well yeah i donno wat else to talk about....im in skool now and i hav nite skool today and im really tired but i might go have lunch with my babe:love: lo0l.....
anywys yeah i gtg now
bye bye
p.s. sorry savo if i didnt tell u about this good news but wallah i couldnt until i made sure and now i am so here u go babe....i love u soo much hunni....u kno that u r my bridesmaid lo0l....i cant hav alot tho not lik wat i dreamed of.....its gonna b u , my sis(may b im not sure yet cus she doesnt wanna b may b)....and christina which im not sure about her neither so yeah im planning to hav 3 now only other that habing 6-8 lo0l.....

[~*SouSou*~]

hey bloggy....
OMG long time ...i kno....aww well alot happening these days....alot to do in a lil time.....well yeah easter is over and hhere i am again in skooll doing more work and omg i hav an exam tonite....wish me luck.....even tho i studied but still im nervous...i hav to do real good so i could get excepted into the pre nursing program that i wanna take next year....
well yeah thx alot for all the ppl who really cared and took the time to acually pray for my mom and acually ask about her.....emma gurl.....cazzy....savo thx alot babe for keeping her in ur prayers hunni....
well yeah engagement is next month now and we will see wats gonna happen lool ....im soo happy even tho there is alot on my mind.....im just kind of thinking about how am i gonna b with this person for the rest of my life and dont get me wrong cus im not complianing or anything but its just wired in a good way.....well yeah i miss all of my friends....omg i havent seen them in a long time...and everytime i try to make time for them i end up doing something else....so yeah .....skool is almost done and i hav to work hard this summer cus im planning on getting a car soon and also i hav other things that i need money for ......so yeah easter wasnt that bad other than me working alot that weekend and i missed the party.....i really wanna go out and party one day without anyone telling me wat to do and all that.....lol........
well yeah thats about it for today,....
sousou
ps. thx alot savo for everything babe....love u....

[~*SouSou*~]

hey hey
wats uppppppppppppp?????lol........
well yeah since i had no skool today i decided to go out alil and hav fun with my friends......its real nice outside....omg i love this weather.....well yeah i went to st clair first and me and Hadeel went to her work and after that i ended up going shopping and i got a real nice white skirt and a pair of aldo dressy shoes.....hahahaha its real nice..............awww well i guess thats pretty much it nothing else to say other than i miss my boo.......lol.....cant wait until tomorrow..............

im just gonna go and call someone and talk alil on the phone lol.....
love u all

[~*SouSou*~]

hey lovely bloggy.....
welll yeah im setting here now and im too damn lazy to go and take the bus home....its tooooo hot outside i cant stand it but awww well its alll good.........today was real good except that i woke up late and i came to skool late and i wasnt allowed to go into my class cus i was 15 minutes late....and its not my fault.....some stupid person kept on calling my house last nite until 2 in the morning and he or she calls priavte and i hate it cus they wouldnt say anything and that got on my nerves im sure its none of my friends cus i kno that they wont play dirty jokes lik that and plus i jhav a cell and when they wanna do that they call my cell cus they kno that i hav a sick mother at home and she cant b bothered so yeah i didnt get enough sleep well acually i didnt go to bed until 4;30 in the morning cus of that and i was supposed to wake up at 6 to wake up my sis so she could go t0 skool and i didnt wake up until 7;45 and omg the house was a mess cus of that so now i hav to go home and clean everything well yeah.........a good thing about today is that i went shopping with kitkat during my break and hahahaha i bought him a pink shirt from GUess lol....i kno that my friends r mad at me cus im making him wear pink but i swear its soo cute on him lol....and yeah he is sooo sweeet he got me a gifrt today ....he got me a silver cross with a silver chain and omg its soo nice i love it.......well yeah even tho i dont wear anything around my neck but i loved it and i cant wait until next week...........well yeah omg im really hot here its burning i feel lik im in hell lol......well yeah i guess im gonna go now

ps. plss god help hadeel with her problem i wish i could do something but again its her life and i cant get in it.......and thx alot for everything u did for me....i feel soo happy and blessed....

[~*SouSou*~]

hey bloggy
OMG today is the day....im soo damn nervous.....my friends are telling me it will b allright but im really nervous i donno wat to say wat to do....anyways hopefully everything will go just lik how we planned it....
well yeah yesterday i went over Savo's house and guess wat she went to work and i was real upset cus i really wanted to see that damn gurl...but awww well i might go again next weeek inshala,...
so yeah im at skool now and i went to class and hand in my project and damn i did real good on that project and i better get a good damn mark in that class...well yeah its 8am now and im really bored to death i hav nothing to do until 2 but im just waiting for kitkat to get out of class and i really wanna leave this damn skool and go somewhere cus i aint feeling good...may b cus im nervous or i just donno....
i was talking to cricri yesterday and omg she has this sickness that might stay with her forever and i feel so bad i wish i was there for her she sounded real depressed and i didnt kno wat to say for the first time in my life i didnt know wat to tell her and i felt bad cus she doesnt deserve that.....................she is going to see a doctor today and she will see wat he will say about it...
this is the first time i have ever heard of this kind of sickness......i really forgot wat is called cus the name was too long and its not fimiliar....but all wat it does is it makes the person get real lazy and unable to do anything not even study or work and it makes the body feel so week and take all the energy away and i feel real bad for cricri cus she is the type of person who loves to hav fun and she is a real active gurl...oh god plss help her.....she is my best friend and more than that too...she was there for me during hard times and she is a good person that i could count on when im in neeed......
well yeah i was kind of thinking of that too last nite cus as soon as she told me i couldnt sleep or stop thinking about it......plsss god help her..........
welll yeah another thing my friend hadeel i really donno wats wrong with my friends these days they r all having these problems that i cant help them with and i wish i could do something but there is nothing for me to do other than just b there for them......omg sometimes i just hate guys....this gurl is a really nice gurl and she is down to earth but her fiancee is an ass i swear and i donno why is he treating her bad she is the sweetest thing on god earth....anyways god plss help her too cus she is going through alot too.....
well yeah im soo thankful for everything my family, my life and my friends.....they mean so much to me......
i guess im gonna go now and do something else cus im really bored.....a minutes sound lik an hour....lol...anyways take care hun and i will let u kno about the wats gonna happen tonite....

cya

:love: :love: :love: :angel: :angel: [-o< [-o<

[~*SouSou*~]

Hey bloggy
Well I donno im just not feelin good today…I couldn’t sleep all nite long and I had to leave the house at 5;30 to go to work and it was real busy today and I was real tired……..and I cant even think right donno why……feels soo wired and I hav these feelings that something bad is gonna happen which I really don’t want to….but aww well lets hope that nothing is gonna happen….well yeah anyways…….Kitkat went to this house party that his friend is having and I really didn’t want him to go but aww well I didn’t wanna say anything but yeah I feel soo sick and tired I just wanna sleep but I cant I went to bed and I tried to sleep but I couldn’t…..I could stop thinking…………anyways im gonna go now cus I hav work tomorrow at 6 again so im gonna go and try to relax……

Bye bye for today……

Ps…oh God plsss help me go through this without getting hurt ….im just too scared….plsss help Hadeel…..and make Christina feel better…….Happy Birthday Christina…..I wish I was there babe but wallah I promise that I will come this summer to Quebec and we will party lik there is no tomorrow lol….and also Savo may god bless her i kno she work hard...miss u babegurl.....

[~*SouSou*~]

hey bloggy
well yeah last week of skool omg alot to do and im soo nervous about exams...hopefully i will do good....
well yeah its been about a week that im not feeling good and i dont know wats the reason.....i just feel soo mad and i just wanna let my anger out on someone..............im soo stressed and i dont know over wat...i mean everything is going lik the way i want it but still i feel lik there is something missing and im trying to find out wat it is but i come up with nothing...
well yaeh my family went out yesteraday and they wanted me to go out too but i was real tired and i couldnt even move from my bed...i came back from work reawl tired and i just wanted to sleep so i ended up not going with them......well yeah so the house was real uuit and i thought i was gonna sleep but well the damn phone...ppl calling and asking about my parents it was soo annoying......so i couldnt sleep so i ended up calling kit kat and i feel soo bad cus i was kind of mad and i just let my anger out on him and i seriously statred bitching on him.....omg i feel soo bad but ah well i guess he understand...he knows that i love him............
well yeah now im at skool i hav a class at 2 and i really dont feel lik going i just wanna go somewhere else other than skool its just soo annyoing....well ummmm yeah nothing much so im gonna go now and i will get back to u later....

[~*SouSou*~]

hey hey hey bloggy
omg such a wonderful day outside....
well yeah i feel much better now its lik all that stress went away.....
omg friday is last day of skool and i cant wait.....
welll yeah my parents want to go on vacation this summer and they wanna go to Iraq...omg.........well i donno wats gonna happen....i would love ot go and see my relatives but not now cus i kno its not safe and alll that...alot of ppl told me some damn scary stories that happened to ppl that went there to visit....
umm well yeah im at skool now on a break and im doing my lil sis project....she better do good on the presentation cus i really worked hard on it.....lol....
well yeah i might work today and i also wanna go to the back and cash my check and get some college papers done omg alot to do.....wow...
well yeah last nite i went out with the family and i had fun even tho i was tired but i promised them that i was gonna go ............... it was fun....its soo wonderful to see my family smiling and laughing all the time.....it gives me a nice feeling that i just love it and i wish it will stay lik this forever and ever.....
well yeah im listening to music now and im trying to concetrate on my work also....omg i cant belive that i hav an exam this sunday andim soo damn nervous about it i just think that im gonna fail.......well lets hope not but well.....
so yeah thats about it...
i miss my savo.....cricri....hadeel....and evryone else.....

God plss help hadeel go tho this cus i kno that she is hurt but she doesnt wanna admit it cus she knows that it hurts so deep inside......

[~*SouSou*~]

hey bloggy
i kno its been along time that i havent been on this lovely site...anyways.....im just not feeling well these days may b its cus im home most of the time and im done skool...or may b cus of something else....
well yeah on saturday i went to the party with my family it was fun but i wasnt really enjoying it that much....donno why i mean my cousin was there and we were dancing and the whole family was happy but still i was kind of depressed...anyways im trying to make myself busy with anything so i wont hav to think too much...but yeah....in june im starting work full time and i cant wait...cus i really need money for next year....im planning on buying a car and all that and also in july im going to Saskatoon...and i cant wait i wanna go see my cousins and my uncles there and some relatives hopefully its gonna b fun.......so yeah things havent been real good lately....but thx god for everything...its all good no matter wat
well yeah im sitting home now bored nothing to do....
anyways im gonna go now...

ps. oh god plss help me get over these wired feelings cus im hurting other ppl at the same time and even tho i dont mean to hurt them cus i love them from all my heart but im really in a bad mood and i donno wat to do...too many problems and donno wat to do........sorry kit kat........
and also plss help Hadeel and Zeinab who just broke up with her bf who she was with for more than 5 years poor gurl....i donno wat to say to her...and also savo....christina...and everyone else....and also my lil sis who is in her teenage years...plss god be there for her at all time....
im also sorry for nem chaldo omg fadfoodie....babe im sorry i didnt come and see u when u came to windsor babe.....wallah im sorry.....
well yeah and thx god for letting me pass all my classes and im going to nursing now next year and hopefully it will b allright....anyways thats all for now....bye bye

[~*SouSou*~]

hey bloggy
i miss u soo much i swear...
omg wel yeah im tired now and i just wanna sleep but well im waiting for my babe to come and pick me up we r going to the moviessssssssssssssss yeahhhhhh....
anyways my day so far has been great other than that i had to wake up at 5;30 to go to work and i slep at 1 in the morning last nite alll cus of Kit kat lo0l...we were talking on the phone for hours ....anyways yeah nothing much,, yeyeye im going to Quebe this july inshala to see my friend Cricri omg i miss her soo much..so yeah i miss this site soo damn much since im working full time i barely hav the chance to site down on the computer and chat alil....
ummm yeah nothing much i miss everybody...
Sava....Caziiiiiiii.....Nem chaldooo.....and alll of u guys....
so yeah anyways i gtg now cus i hav to finish getting ready and also i hav to get back home early cus im working at 6 tomorrow....anyways love u
bye bye :love:

[~*SouSou*~]

:( hey bloggy omg its been along time since ive been on this lovely site.....
well life is getting even harder day by day....thing dont seem the same and ppl change.....
well yeah ive been working alot since i decided that im going to pay for my schooling all by myself with no help from anyone....im working about 6 days a week and sometimes 7 and its crasy i barely get time off.....but its all worth it....
welll yeah another thing is that im planning on buying a car so im trying to save money for that too and many more things on my mind that i wanna doo.....so yeah i so wanted to go on vacation this summeer and me and my family had some plans and everything was done and ready until i got the letter from college and i got accepted into the pre nursing and i hav to pay about 3000$ not including books and uniform.....
ill be back later got to go now...

[~*SouSou*~]

ok so here we go i havent been on this site for a while due to work and shitty life.....i miss everyone here....u guys r wonderful....welll wat to say tomorrow is ma b-day and i really dont feel like doing shit donno why just im feeling down lately...things arent going tooo good....my mom is sick again and dad also ...alll this stress is growing day by day and i cant control it no more....havent talked to my friends in a while cus i really dont wanna worry them and at the same time i kno that im being real bitchy lately and i dont wanna hurt them.....my baby kitkat is sick also omg i wish its me and not him hayati...i love him sooo much he acually took a day off tomorrow so he will take me out for my b-day no matter wat...another thing his mom talked to me about our engagement and may b its sooon so i donno i dont wanna upset her cus she is sick but at the same time i donno wat to do i hav so much in mind...
anyways god help me.....and another thing keep ur angels wiht my lil bro he went camping and i miss him so much anyways also help savooo in everything and nem chaldo..fadfoodie i miss u hun...and everyone else who need ur help....
wow im gonna b 19..... :(

[~*SouSou*~]

hey bloggy
i missed u soo much...damn this life is shit......there is alot to do in so litle time and i cant manage keeping up on everything im just going crazy.......anyways yeah skool started and its not bad for the first weeek well yeah i got hw allready but its not that hard like i thought it would be anyways.......im gonna b out of windsor this weekend...im going to Toronto to visit some relatives and all that.....and im back monday to skool and work after that damn i gotta work my ass off to save some money for this summer and i told Savooo why and hopefully everything will b allright im kind of excited but at the same time im kind of nervous i donno if im going in the right path or not im just soo lost and when i sit down and think about wats going on around me i just give up......anyways welll things hasnt been soo goood lately....my mom might go back to the hospital again and get more treatment and that just put me even more down i wish i could do something but well i guess this is life and i cant change it...well yeah im working full time and also im going to skool as a full time student and i dont think i could take it...its just tooo much and im trying to keep it up....awww welll we'll see where this whole thing is going.....wellll i donno wat else to say other than i miss talking to everyone on here i swear i dooo .....and everytime i write in here it makes me feel sooo relived and i like that cus it makes me feel better.....anyways yeah im in skool now and im supposed to do my chemistry project but i really dont feel like doing nothing today.....i havent seen kit kat since Wednesday........poor him he is working sooo hard........i misss u hayatiiiiii...............
\well i guess thats pretty much it i gotta go back and finish up the damn project and after that i have a class...

im just waiting for a better day to come..... [-o< :angel:

and god plsss help khalto Manal gets better....i love u soo much khaltoo........
and also i would wanna say thanks to Bono.....for telling sava to come over......ur such a sweetheart hun....thx alot :love:
well yeah thats about it for today....
take care everyoone.......

[~*SouSou*~]

hey bloggy
omg where can i start....tooo much to talk about and too much to complain about aww well i guess im gonna have to deal with this shity life no matter wat.....well yeah im at skool now and damn i have so much work to do and i cant even move im sooo damn tired i took 2 days off work and i didnt even relax in these 2 days i hate it....since last friday until today i think i had only about 12-15 hours of sleep due to my busy scheduale( skool, work, house, cleaning and all that shit ) tooo much to deal with and i cant take it no more im at the point where im just gonna leave everything behind and leavve everybody here in shity sin city windsor and go find me somewhere else by myself and yeah i did say by myself no one else with me not family not firends neither kit kat......
he is always telling me that im working tooo ****ing hard welll its cus im trying to save money for the freaking wedding since its gonna b sooo sooon and i cant belive it im totaly messed up im totaly lost i donno where to start with and wat to do....on top of that fmily problems everyday for simple things and i cant belive that my dad actually belive all the shity talk that everyone say man i just had enough i hate ppl and i hate myslef for living in this shity world...............
omg i really donno wats wrong with me...i mean u cant belive all the problems that im gettting now.....i was soo happy last weekend when i went to toronto over some of my relatives but i think i made the biggest mistake in my life.....they now want me to get to kno a guy that they think he is the perfect guy and even though they ****ing kno im with kit kat omg wtf is wrong with ppl why cant they understand that this is my life andi do wat i want with it and no one else can tell me wat to do....well yeah stupid me i told kit kat about the whole problem and shit he filpped on me and the only thing he said is "Oh if im causing u problems with ur family then i wouldnt want that" thats bullshit wth is wrong with him now we've been together for ages now im not gonna leave him cus my family found another guy who wants to get engaged to me thats just messed upp omg i just wannt yell now sooo loud....i wish i was at home i was gonna do it but im at skool anywaysss...gttg now i hav alot of things to do

[~*SouSou*~]

hey hey
welll im really upset right now and pissed at the same time...nothing is going right,,,im soo freaking tired i cant even move,, well yeah yesterday i had work and i got in big shit cus i kicked out these 4 lebanese guys from tim hortons and i dont care theey were ****ing pigs....they just sat there talking shit and i couldnt take it they were trying to get my number until i got sooo ****ing pissed off so i told them to ****ING leave the place well yeah i got in shit for that but i dont care no more...i got home at about 12;30 until i washed my clothes and got my stuff ready for skool today i went to bed at about 2;30 i set up my alarm clock at 5;30 welll guess wat bloggy my sister wakes up at 5 and turns it off and let me sleep until 7 and she knew that i had to wake up at 5;30 to get everything ready so i could leave the house at 7 well yeah i was yelling at ****ing mad cus i had a test at 8 but since i was late i missed my class and well yeah so i just had enough i seriously just sat down there and cried i didnt know wat to do....the bus wasnt gonna come not in another hour so i was gonna b late...i called hadeel my best friend to give me aride but she doesnt have her car and kitkat is reallly sick i called him and told him so he wanted to come and pick me up but i refused so i ended up taking the later bus and i was late so i came and i tried to talk to the teacher and if i could do my test and he just ****ing refused................**** that wth i hate this life.....well yeah im going to work today again and omg i seriously cant take it no more im just soo tired i get about 2-3 hours of sleep everyday and thats it im working like crazy and no one appriciated it,,,,,
welll yeah now im just setting in the lab doing nothing since i cant go to class and i have nothing to do...i emailled the teacher and i told him if i could get another chance but i dont know im not feeling too goood about it......welll yeah my life sucks...and wat pissses me off the most is that my sister did that on purpose cus she knew that u had to leave the house at 7 and she thought it was funny well wait until she gets to college and university and she well see how funny it is when u miss a class.....
well yeah Kitkat just called and he told me that he is coming to pick me up at 10 to go out to the riverside for a walk since im soooo stressed out ....poor him he hurt his back and i feel soo bad for him i wish i was hurt and not him....welll yeah my cell phone is messed up too cus i droped it 3-5 times and now its messing up...im gettting a new one next week and im actually gonna have a family plan with kitkat since it will save me some money.....welll yeah thats about it im tired,,,,sick and mad about everything thats going on in my life........
omg family problems never end and i had enough i just wanna leave this place and go somewhere else.....ohhh on top of that i get my uncle getting mad at me when i told him about me and kitkat and he said that if i get married to kitkat then he wont even come to my wedding and he wont even talk to me and i was lik good for u 3amo u made my life way easier....may b i was mean but shit they just get on my nerves they pissed the hell out of me alll the time they think that its ****ing their life and its not mine and they get to control it the way they want and thats not gonna work with me at alll.....
anyways i got to go now bloggy.....



I HATE LIFE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :cry: :cry: :cry: :cry: :( :( :( :( :( GOD why cant u just take me away............cus i cant stand it no more......................

[~*SouSou*~]

hey bloggy
well yeah new day and im still alive...umm weell yeah im at skool again and im just bored nothing to do....kitkat went to get the new car.. im soo happy about that cus we needded that....well yeah im working today and i really dont feel lik it..i dont feel lik doing nothing other than just sit alone with no one else.. well yeah i donno wat wrong with me im just not feeling the same no more since wat happened with my family i dont kno wats right from wrong...i donno wats gonna happen next im just letting it go the way god planned it to go... even if i get hurt well i guess this is life and i cant do nothing about it.. well yeah anyways...too much work at skool i hav 3 tests this week and i donno if im gonna do good or not well yeah biology, math and chemistry all thise and i dont hav time to study since im working well yeah....life is messed up.....ummm yeah wat else to say... yeah my mom aint feeling good at all and i dont kno wat to do i wish i could do something but i tried and there is nothing that i could actually do that will take all that discomfort and the pain away from her....god plsss help her cus i dont kno if i could actully live my life without her being there supporting me in everything i do and every step i take....
umm well yeah i misss all my friends i barely spend time with them no more... misss savoo and thx alot babe for keeping me in ur prayers.....i miss everyone walllah ......wow how hard life is gonna get.....well yeah if plans dont go the way i planned it this summer then well yeah im moving bcak to quebec for sure and i dont care about ppl talking cus seriously they got nothing more important other than opening their big nasty mouth and talk about ppl....i hate windsor.......... well yeah i wanna go eat now i feel lik im gonna just die...im starving my self cus im soo stressed out and i dont kno wat to do......i just dont feel lik eating anymore even tho when im hungr i just dont lik food no more and well yeah i hav to go to the doctor cus he called me the other day and told me that my blood test resualt are in and i have to go and talk to him well i really dont feel lik going so yeah im not gonna go screw that ......welll umm nothing much other than life really sucks and i hate it with a passion....
cya bloggy until next time we meet thats if we met again.....
love everyone soo much and wish everyone the best in their life.
bye bye

ps. love u soo much god and sorry if i bothering u this much but as u can see my life really sucks...never a happy moment and thats why i give up on everythhing so i will let it all in ur hands and u do wat should b done................... :thumbdown: :thumbdown: :( :( :(

[~*SouSou*~]

hey bloggy
welll yeah long time i kno.....im just soo depressed and so down...i dont feel lik doing anything at allnot even talking to ppl.....im trying my best to smile and belive lies that everything is gonna b allright but its not and i kno it wont cus so far its just getting worst and nothing is better...
well yeah my mom is still in the hospital and poor her she is getting worst day by day...she is trying to fight her sickness but nothing is going right...yesterday the doctor talked to my dad and told him that they have to move her to another hospital which is like a nursing home for ppl who r real sick and cant live at home...well i donno i really want her to come back home...but the doctors are saying that we really cant take care of her at home cus her health isnt like before and its really hard on her and us at the same time...so my dad told my mom that they are transfering her to the other hospital and well she refused...she doesnt wanna go there....cus she know that the ppl that go there they dont have that much left for them to live....so yeah so far we dont kno wat to do...i mean i dont mind taking care of her at home cus i've been doing it for the past 6 years but its just that the doctors are not letting her come home cus her health isnt the same....and i really dont wanna upset her.....so we're just so confused about wat to do....
i really donno wat to say but no matter wat i try to make myself belive, its just so hard that im actually losing her right infront of me and im just unable to do anything that could help her get better....
my lil bro is sick too.....things arent that good with him neither...he just cant belive that mom isnt there no more and its hard cus everytime i bring him to the hospital to visit all u see is the tears in his eyes and asking whole bunch of questions about why is she so hurt lik that???
my uncle came last weekend from quebec to visit my mom....and now my cousin is over.,....she got to windsor yesterday from saskatoon...i havent seen her in like 12-14 years.....i miss her sooo much....
things arent going well between me and Kitkat neither and i kno its all my fault cus im just under so much stress and just so bitchy all the time to him....im soo sorry but hopefully he'll understand.....i mean on friday it was his b-day and well i didnt get him anything or well i donno i just dont feel lik spending time with him anymore cus im always stressed out and depressed and he doesnt have to deal with this .....even tho if he tells me that its ok but to me i just cant b mean to him all the time,,,,its just not right...thats why i would rather stay away from him.....
well yeah its a whole mess at my house...ppl coming over and ppl leaving....its crazy.....i also went back to work after a week off....i seriously cant afford it no more..i have bills to pay and if i dont work then im done,,,welll yeah thats about it....
wow i love this site so much...every time i write on here it makes me feel better....thx alot for everyone who prayed for my mom.....
cya later..... :( :cry:

[~*SouSou*~]

hey bloggy
long time havent wrote in here
well yeah lots happened but nothing that i would wanna talk about....i miss everyone in here...i jus wanna thank everyone who supported me during everything and even tho they werent there in person but they were there in spirit...thx alot to savoo who stayed by me at the most difficult time in my life i would never forget her....i love u khaiiiiii....well yeah 3 days to go until everything gets to its right place and i welll im happy and at the same time nervous....but aww welll i think this is what i hav to do and there is nothing else that would change it...anyways talk to ya later....
love love for everyone...
bono, caz, pinky, and everyone else thx alot for eveerything....and ohh i wont forget fadfoodie....i love u guys

[~*SouSou*~]

hey its me again
well im just so depressed today...i try to smile but for wat thats the question???everything is wrong and nothing is right.....u try to help someone and they get back to u in a mean way....ppl talking shit...ppl hating...why this world is lik this....why cant it b good and perfect for once.....even ur own sibilings hates u and try to put u down.....wow....
anyways im sitting home alone....im waiting for savo to give me a call so she could come over...my hubby went to work early in the morning....and poor him ppl dont get off of his back neither....they always get him mad and frustrated...he is so good to them and they dont even care....finally we dicided to move away from shitty windsor....ppl r just full of shit...ive never seen a chaldean opening their mouth and say something good...it always has to be talking shit about others....ohh god.....anyways... today i wanna go get flowers and visit the cemetery....i miss my mom....for some reason she was the only person who understood me....i really do miss her.....anyways i have to go cook....talk to a later...

[~*SouSou*~]

umm...its 7:15 in the morning...im all alone at home...kitkat went to work...im just feeling soo down...i dont feel lik talkin or doing anything....yesterday i cried but it was worth it...finally my 2 best friends r talking now...it made my day yesterday...
i wish i kno wat he is thinking...i wish i kno wat he is planning...i wish i was him for a day....i dont kno wats been up with him lately...he is quiet....mad most of the time... i try to talk and even make him chill but nothing aint working...god just help him...i kno he is going thro alot now but just b there for him...
i feel so left out...no one to talk to...no family....no one else...it feels wired....for some reason i donno wats happening around me anymore.....seems lik everything is going bad....nothing good....oh god.,...
on saturday my best friend is coming over...all the way from quebec....i miss he so much but im just in a bad mood and i wouldnt want her to notice anything...
anyways i gtg now i will come back later....

please god help him find his way....help him come back the way he was...and help e b strong and support him as much as i could...i love u....

[~*SouSou*~]

hey bloggy...i miss u
well yeah i was on a long vacation and wel it was fun but at the same time i regret it now...i was sick a couple days ago...it was my kidney again well still taking medication ...i actually feel better...
ummm yesterday we went to the beach me and my hubby...we had so much fun but by the time we got home we were both burned from the sun...i mean we both had sun lotion on and everything was allright...even the weather wasnt that hot...anyways im burned,....but not as bad as my hubby...he couldnt even go to work today...and we had to go to the doctor...he said it was third degree burn...omg...i was crying all day long...i feel so bad...anywys...on top of that his phone broke....uffff wat a weekend...omg...just so much problems....