Kalmani Dayz

[KALMANI]

well this is the start of my blog...here it goes...

i woke up today looking at the gorgeous sunshine & thinking how my day or night will turn out...will it be beautiful like the day or dark like the night...but in any case im looking forward to it...i wake up with many problems trying to solve but all i can do is one at a time & many more to encounter....as i have made wrong financial decisions....& need to work on bigger and better dreams to make reality happen...my scenario of life sucks but im trying to make it work...my family is never happy...its like pleasing a ghost...one minute of happiness & years of misery...im trying to get out of michigan, not trying to escape my problems but to solve them in other ways & have a fresh point of view in life...my happiness & the feeling of being me is in california but my loneliness & sadness is in michigan...ive been through alot & grew up to fast as im seen by many as a guy who smiles with no worries....for they see the outside but inside all the opposite...with no helping hand i feel so alone...sometimes so much to overcome with so little i can do...sometimes i feel like giving up but i wake up another day & i see a sunshine & say to myself let me give it one more try...& my cycle of life happens all over again...


- KALMANI

[KALMANI]

Birthdayz are going & coming by with every year wanting to be the best & you realize that your maturing into another cycle of your life with many promises to be fulfilled & questions to be answered...what lies ahead is still unknown but what you have been through will lead you out...as I stare out & go in a daze...I say to myself wow its really my birthday & im 29 damn but I feel like so much younger physically yet so much older mentally...where does it go from here & what will i think on my next birthday...all I can wish for today is for me to have a happy birthday & go to sleep with a smile...


- KALMANI

[KALMANI]

Another Year, Another Dream...Here comes our resolutions to be again tried & failed...maybe this year is the year...I swear I'm gonna do it, I swear I try, & a promise broken yet we try again next year...why wait till January 1st why not now whats so special about waiting for a new year or after the weekend or tomorrow...WHY NOT NOW!!! we build ourselves for the moment for the start of our goals & only to achieve nothing & to dig ourselves in a ditch...forget what people say, forget about what the horoscopes tell you & what the signs show...you want something go for it now...you'll never know if it was the right moment until its gone & you'll never try again..whats the use, why dream...why not reality - WHY NOT LIFE...whats your happiness & what makes you laugh...keep the faith & live on...BE YOU & DO WHAT YOU DO...YOUR LIFE WILL BE IN PROSPECTIVE...just focus & remember, your future is in your hands & if something does not make you happy, THEN CHANGE IT NOW & LIVE - DON"T WAIT FOR TOMORROW, THE WEEKEND, OR FOR THE NEW YEAR...BE HAPPY & CONTROL YOUR DESTINY...cuz in the end when everything is all said & done is either you thanking yourself if you did or never forgive yourself for not doing it....make the meaningless, meaningful...be the uncommon & let people know who you are & succeed...


- KALMANI

[KALMANI]

i havent done this in a long time but i felt like typing today...just wanted to talk about love...why is love so hard...why can’t you just be in love...i miss the feeling where ur just having fun sitting right next to them & you dont care what is happening all around you...why can’t you feel them next to you right by your side....kiss them ...touch them...caress them....feel there skin next to yours...why is that hard...damn i miss all the moments in love cuz i feel like a phene....i want those days back... so nice it was to hear i love you right before you go to sleep...where theres somebody out there who loves you...when you see them smile & your heart lights up....when you see them laughing & you smile...when you hear a love song & you think about them...& then slow dance...you look in there eyes & kiss them lips...& the moment is yours...you dont want it to end...feels like a dream....& she sets your mind, your heart, your love free...man....where are you...damn...and i cant imagine life without that...no matter how much i miss it...i wish i never felt love like that cuz it feels so good...you always want it...wow the butterflies i have just thinking about it...and life goes on...huh...moments in love...life is just aint right without it...

- KALMANI

[KALMANI]

searching your soul for the moment or moments & you start thinking as a smile comes across your face.....you fall into a daze & remember it....you reach out for it & you see it as clear as day trying to capture it...you feel the emotions, the sense, the life & you look at the sun, so bright & blue sky so right...& the cool breeze touching your skin...you enjoy the escape & then you wake up...the reality...as you wanna close your eyes again chasing that peaceful bliss...

- KALMANI